*tired*

Sesiapa yang tidur lebih lewat daripada aku akan disebat 10 kali esok pagi!

After a long day and screening through some blogs, i think i have two conclusion to draw.

1. I am NOT photogenic at all! Damn Serene for pulling me in! LOL! Weh this one sensitive topic lar cannot make fun of me! >.<

2. One more day left before the real thing. You have all shown vast improvement and potential chance to gain victory. In fact, victory is actually already in our hands. Victory, does not only mean the champion with the huge silver cup. Victory comes along with process, with care, with love. Victory comes along when everyone feels good when we do this together : cry together, laugh together, get rained together, get shone together, get sick together, get healthy together, get boring together, get funny together, PMS together, un-PMS together, eat together, drink together, spit together, stare at each other together, play games together, watch "porns" together, make horny sounds together and get horny together. That is what victory is supposed to feel like. And no doubt, i am happy to see the happy faces on everyone's faces in the photos taken posted at Sab-pendek-rina's blog. Sheau Li looked so serious. O.O I hope that's Sheau Li beside Hyn-Yi. But again, PLEASE do not go see those photos. I cannot bear looking at myself really. It's like i know that i look like Brad Pitt but when i look at myself i only see Tzen Hong. Nah just joking Tzen Hong looks very cute especially when he was in form one [note: go check out his form one photo in the school's latest magazine!] Anyway, the thing that differenciates you all and the Renjers is the bond you have among all of you and the spirit you have. Though formed recently, it does not matter. Seeing all your happy faces when you get along together really feels like tonnes of flowers blossoming together in my heart. Yet seeing all your tired faces and hand movements and the sight of all of you sleeping on the table like pigs really kills! I'm really really grateful to have a squad consisting all of you. Treasure the time you spend with each other, though competition will come to an end, the relationship SHOULD prevail as that is what the true victory is. Unlike Renjer, we have form twos and form threes in squad too. Unlike Pandu, we have form fours and form fives in squad too. Unlike KRS, we do not do dancing. Unlike Kadet, we..wear white! Unlike Puteri Islam, we have guys! And unlike Scouts, we have girls! That makes PBSM special! We have everyone! Where else can you find such a perfect squad like this? Renjer might seem strong but you are all stronger because you can. Renjer might seem like a better squad but we are actually the better one because we can. Renjer might seem to be able to gain the title but no, as we shout "over my dead bodies" because we can. Trust yourselves. Believe and have some beliefs. Pray hard for once. Leave no room for any mistakes. Aim for perfection, as a perfectionist once said. Never give yourselves a chance to regret what you do wrong. Remember, everyone. (:

Left thigh hurts.

Actually one thing about the competition is.. My feelings.

Once this whole marching session has come to an end, there will be no solid reason for me to see the girls, talk to them, joke with them, scold them, console them, and work with them. My one and only connection to them will fade slowly. My love to them is so strong currently but i don't know, as time passes, how much will they remember and how much will they appreciate? Probably i am asking too much. Probably i'm just clapping my own hands. Probably, footdrill is merely footdrill, nothing more.

Saya memang sangat suka kawad. Disebabkan kegemaran saya, saya sanggup untuk berkawad dalam hujan tadi.

Oh that reminds me of something. Thanks Sabrina and Xin Hui and many many more who wanted to accompany me to march in the rain but I could not afford to risk your health. Thank you very very much everyone! You all are very sweet! (: And please don't get sick! Especially Sabrina. Take care!

I miss Eunis still.

Hopefully tomorrow will be a beautiful day and Wednesday will be a rainbow-ful day. (:

LOVE YOU GIRLS~