Thursday, April 30, 2009

He Definitely Deserves Better!

Just watched the live version.

Danny was better than i heard he was. But still to me he is not genuine. Not THAT genuine. And Randy is irritating me very much recently! Even more than Kara does!

Adam is amazing still! He does not deserve a Bottom 3, much less a Bottom 2! The heck! Saya sangat tidak berpuas hati! If he does not win, American Idol can just go fish up and die next year. (: Maybe everyone should divert their attention to X Factor and Britain's Got Talent. :D

Anyway not so much of a nice day today. Very short-tempered. It started off good. The day, i mean. But then found out the dude didn't come to school. So i thought he was going to miss something good later the day. Sigh. Then something a bit bad happened among the AJKs. Which obviously was my fault. Sorry everyone. Especially King Jaarvis, I'm sorry for even suggesting it. I hope Mr Tan does not get heart attack. :) Sigh.

Then found out Wormy didn't come too. And Serene didn't come too! Zzz. Like what the, man.

But then whatever, didn't have to think too much because i had THREE groups of blackbooks to be checked! And most of the books have at least two full pages of names! I swear i started checking the blackbooks even before the first period started and until school ended, i still had one group not checked. Sigh. And stupid me, didn't bring plastic bag to bring the books home. Terpaksa habiskan di sekolah. Tulah pasal aku stress sangat.

Then after school had PBSM jamuan for the footdrill team. But most of them were busy with their own cocurriculum activities and barely made it to the feast. Luckily after 3 everyone started to come. Else all the food would be devoured by me! Garry and Wormy came at around 2.30+. For the food i guess. :P Glad they did. But Serene didn't. Anyway, thanks to all ex-ajks! Roger, who skipped his class just to come back to school to see all the juniors and to eat and to steal and hide my shoe after i stole and hid his. He's the most..erm..loyal ex-ajk i must say. Even after 3 years, he still supports BSMSAB. Winnie, Afizah and Cindy who bertungkus lumus bought the Pizza and drinks all the way to our school for the youngsters. Kinda sorry and paiseh for the lack of..er..layanan. Everyone was busy. :)

Thanks a lot, seniors. :)

*edit*

我不知道。头脑很乱。我需要时间想。明天跑步时,一定要clear my mind!

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

American Idol Rocks but Adam Rocks MORE!

Holy cow~

I am totally excited over this week's performances because all the song choices are BRILLIANT!

So i went over to Rickey's and downloaded their live performances in mp3 format, as usual. And i listened to Danny's first. Come Rain or Come Shine, a song that is stuck in my heart after Katherine McPhee sang it. I still prefer Katherine's rendition. Danny's performance, starting was good. He added something towards the middle of the song and the ending was, to me, a bit messy. I tried listening to it again and it still did not work for me. His performance just hit me as not so genuine. Just a personal opinion.

Matt was next. It was a great song. Melinda Doolittle did a phenomenal job with it and before listening to Matt's performance, i did not think that Matt can reach Melinda's level and after listening to it, i still think that his rendition is not that good.

Allison's. If, IF, she sang just melody without changing too much, it might be nicer, to me. She made it slower again. Unlike's Katherine's version as well. I prefer Katherine's version still. But still a better performance than Matt and even Danny's one i think.

Kris's one is good. But i am not crazy over it. Not sure if it really is his best performance. I still prefer his pop performances.

Adam's one is a killer. The song is VERY famous and it was even sang by The Pussycat Dolls. So i was expecting high notes coming from this dude. He kept me waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting until it came at the end. He was SO SO GOOD his entrance was..KILLING EVERYONE! And.. And...! I totally love his high note! This was actually the only performance which i *cough* danced *cough* to when the song started! I just don't know what to say to tell all of you that this performance rocks!!! WAH WAH WAH i am now officially dead because Adam is friggin' talented!

*dead*

Brother, faster download la! I wanna watch!

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

*boo*

I. Should. Not. Come. Online!

But i got to download Adam and Kris's studio versions from YouTube because i just got the YouTube downloader from Pn Karimah's laptop! :P

Spree~

Anyway it's English again. Sorry KaiShek. :P

Oh anyway it's okay all of you can stop wishing me good luck because it's not like i am going to take any action. So.. It will be very weird if you wish me good luck for nothing, right? So yeah. :)

Oh Miss SS. Like i said right, what if the girl is you? WAHAHAHA! This will be REALLY interesting! :P

[rant]

Sorry my friends, the girl i like for such a long time now is really Miss SS. I cannot hide it anymore. I cannot lie to myself anymore. It's really her. I know she'll never feel the same way towards me. I am sorry.

[/rant]

Imagine if i really typed that. I WILL BE KILLED MAN! XD

Just joking, don't take it seriously. I've been a bit tensed up recently. So i thought of making silly jokes and scandals to lighten things up among friends lo :)

On the other hand, i think we should bond more with the juniors. I feel so..weird and left out when we have activities, the juniors just gather together and have their own fun while the seniors gang up and make their own jokes. No no! Sabrina and Tammie will feel sad without Clement, Garry, Manwyn, CengYew and I because, with us, our height will make them feel LESS sad. :P Sorry Chris, cannot include you here. xP

What crap did i make?

Anyway, having fun chatting with one of the Terengganu dude. He's kinda hilarious and nice to chat with. And..evil!

Okay good bye. I hope everyone enjoys school days. Last year, remember? So please don't skip school! Because school is lonelier without you!

Monday, April 27, 2009

原来。

这。。应该称为暗恋吧。

请问,暗恋是个错误吗?
我只是想知道答案而已。

我希望,我不会到“疯狂的暗恋”那个程度。毕竟那也不是很健康。

也许这样,我也满足了。

嘿嘿,不好意识。很无聊的post。也很白痴。开电脑之前,我一直问自己为了“暗恋”这两个字而blog值得吗?但当我一开启电脑时,就发现这是个错误,因为很浪费时间。历史课还有超多没读的!我真的要坚固我的意志力哦!坚强的意志力来。。。

一,读书。
二,将自己单方面的感觉化为力量来鼓励自己。Positive and optimistic thinking 嘛!但是我有预感你在我心中永远都会有一个地位的

祝我成功!*美琪的perky attitude*

Garry, your name appeared in my previous post right? I was saying that I could not forget the night we spent together in Malacca and I love you very much, till death do us part. :P

*edit*

I think the font is too small. Maybe i should enlarge the font every time i post something from now onwards. *shrugs*

Sunday, April 26, 2009

400.

400th post. =)

我突然间真的很喜欢用华语来update我的部落格。不知被谁影响到的。

今早起来与家人到TasikPermaisuri那儿的公园跑步。

不知为什么,自从从马六甲回来,我一直都很想要跑步。因为我可以趁着这时间不停地思考。

对。Ushana 和 Garry 都知道我很喜欢思考。头脑二十四小时都在想着东西。甚至想得太多,搞得对自己无益。

争取了跑步的时间来想我昨晚所post的文章。

我觉得我最近一直将我的部落格当成我抒发情伤伤感的箱子。搞的大家都以为我为什么都那么的down。

好像我在msn的personal message所写的,是时侯不再理会了。可能当我见到你时,那单方面的feelings会慢慢浮上我心头来,但我会尽量选择不理会。伤心的也许是我一人,但也没关系吧。你是不会知道的。=)

这位朋友,不好意识让你担心。我会与你们一起努力的。
对了,为了回应你,我想说,相信你也知道,我不是个很主动的人,这应该是我最大的缺点吧。我真的知道我自己的缺点在哪儿,但缺乏自信心,没法子更改自己的坏习惯。我多么地想像其他人,拥有那么多的自信心去追求。

在我自己的眼中,我可能只是另家的某个平凡小男孩而已。

赶快做完英文作文还要温习呢!

突然有很多东西可以分享
但是一时时间不足
再加上现在无法记得
全部想表达的内容
只好放弃了

我与你的probability,究竟是多少?

我不知道

我不知道该怎么面对我的感情。

考试快到了。我该理智一点啊。

但是,感情的是,是很难控制的吧。

朋友,我现在真的对自己的能力犹豫不决。感情的事嘛,很难掌握的,对不?

我只能默默地守候及等待奇迹的出现。

我只可以在你后头,看你背后,看你背影,看着你影子慢慢消失,留着一颗永远黑青的心。

不善于打交道的我,只能看着你与他人开心交谈。不懂得交往的我,只能观看你与他人有说有笑。

最后,你,还不知道那就是你。

因为,渺小的我,只懂得在一旁默默地看。只可以等待奇迹的出现。

我不想为自己的故事画上句号,但是我们之间的故事,有作者愿意片写吗?

Friday, April 24, 2009

Visit by Prefects from SMK Sultan Sulaiman, Kuala Terengganu

They wore green!

No Chinese girls! :(

At first sight, they all looked VERY serious and solemn! I was actually slightly intimidated because we were all such jokers and never serious. But then towards the end of the programme most of them lightened up. Especially the Chinese guys who were apparently crazy over SOMEONE'S DAUGHTER. :P

It was a four days three nights trip for them. So they just stopped by our school and wanted to know more about our school's management and administration.

First they went to the Bilik Mesyuarat where Jaarvis as the headboy and birthday boy introduced our school to the guests. However, just a personal opinion, i think the guests were bored because they, like us, come from a cluster school as well so there might be nothing special in this school which they do not have. After that we gave them a mini tour around the school compound which included the Speaker's Corner and the Swimming Hut thingy which is located in front of the Koperasi. I have no idea what is that place called. After that, they went to the Bilik Bahasa to see how English lesson is conducted in our school. Teacher on duty was Pn Wan Rosna. And finally the Prefect's Briefing Room. At this place, we shared the system practised by our school with them, which included the KDL system and Merit Demerit system. Nothing much really, compared to the visit from SMP N1, Bogor because there was less interaction between the guests and us. :(

But one thing is for sure, the Chinese guys could NOT stop snapping pictures of SOMEONE'S DAUGHTER! :P And she was embarrassed! Haha!

After the Briefing Room stop, everyone gathered back at the Bilik Mesyuarat for lunch. Not much interaction still. =.= I was actually quite bored and less enthusiastic because like i said, no interaction at that time. But then when we walked from the Bilik Mesyuarat to the front office to take photos, the journey to the office was where everything started to become more interesting. They started to take phone numbers and what not and ASKED ABOUT SOMEONE'S DAUGHTER :P It was really hilarious because both sides were so modest! Haha! After photography session, it's the end of the journey in this school. We exchanged gifts. And guess what we got, one of the buff guy's tie. And we gave them our tie too. I think Munirah did. And a few badges were given to them as well. Oh yeah speaking about that buff guy, most of the Malay dudes there were quite big size! I was actually, again, intimidated because i am so tiny right? *roar*

Anyway, yeah. That's the end. I wish they could have stayed longer though. Might have been fun talking, especially to the dudes who wanted SOMEONE'S NUMBER :P

But one thing still, no hot girls! ):

To King Jaarvis A/L Verasingam

Happy Birthday HeadBoy of SMK Aminuddin Baki! :D

To the first guy i talked to when i first came to this school in form one. The one who made fun of me when i was in form one. =.= The one who turned so fat after 5 years and still has the biggest butt in school! One of the most sociable guys i've known. One of the funniest guys i've known for life.

Glad to have known you, buddy. Though we might not be the best buddies, i always hope and pray for the best for you dude. Welcome to the seventeen gang and stay happy!

A friend who always supports in any possible ways

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Shaheen Jafargholi - 12 Year Old Singer - Britains Got Talent 2009 Ep 2

Crazy. Totally crazy. I should have joined Britains Got Talent when i was 12 too because i was that talented. :P Just joking! Love this! Thanks for introducing, Clayton! :D

Monday, April 20, 2009

Nostalgia

Yes, exactly. Homesick. Homesick. Pn Sarimah, i miss you. Kg Sg Rambai, i miss you.

Tranquility, i miss you.

Unlucky. Getting sick. But should be okay. Being sick during the Intervensi = Sleep during Intervensi. The mosquito bites are killing me still! Especially the one on my left foot. It's SWOLLEN! Unbelievable.

YeeShan is officially driving! Fetch me back home, lady!

Anyway, homework time and a report to be done! I am just simply ignoring the mere existence of the intervensi. Go screw yourself up and die!

*edit*

Are prefects allowed to wear slippers to school? I can barely walk with my left leg. Ouch. Anyway dude, i will try to cheer up more. :)

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Back from Paradise

Back from the Home Stay leadership programme in Malacca.

Very tired.

And at the verge of getting sick.

Sleeping really soon.

Homework undone. Revision not started. Doom awaits.

Anyway, when i said i am back from paradise, i was not being sarcastic. This programme is truly amazing and it's the best school trip i've ever joined in my secondary school life! I got to stay with all my close friends! Stupid Jonny Ru and YeeShan didn't go though. :P And got to heart-to-heart with Ushane and Garry! I thought of doing it till 7 in the morning with Garry but both of us could not stand the weariness anymore and slept at 5 in the morning and woke up at 7+. Got to share something with SereneTai as well. Hopefully things till get better from here. I will try to stick by my visions and goals. And the trip was just fun! People who did not join because they thought this would suck, you were very wrong!

Sleep! I might post more later. Might. Good night. Zzz.

Ps. Let's flunk the exam together!

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Sg Rambai Here I Come!

Very nervous! I don't know why. I just am!

I think i forgot something important to bring tomorrow. I just don't know what.

I hope i get to stay with someone fun and someone whom i can go crazy with! *fingers crossed*

I just wanna rock my weekend since Monday is the Intervensi and obviously i've touched nothing.

I just wanna rock~

See everyone there!

Monday, April 13, 2009

By that minority part of my soul..

Somehow..

Amidst all these busyness and business and tension and disappointment, i wish my thought is radiated to someone. Someone. And let it be interpreted accurately by the correct person. Bring me one, as probably i need one. Yet, i can only wish..

By that minority part of me

I Love Sushi!

Went to Sushi King today! Promotion, will never miss it!

Stupid tempura only came out when we were already paying our bill.

But other than that, sushi was DELICIOUS! Really love sushi a LOT! Unagi is so yum yum~

Did not eat too much salmon this time. Only a plate of smoked salmon which has slight wasabi and tasted fantastic! And to the makcik yang meletakkan soy sauce dengan wasabi, eww~ :P

The uncle who also went with me did not eat much! Probably he doesn't like sushi that much? And the waiter who always stood by our side, i think he had a crush on one of us. Because he kept on looking at us! And Boey said he even screened the uncle and me UP AND DOWN. O.O

And he's a waiter.

HE's a waiter.

I am scared. And thrilled. :P

I really love sushi, my friends. Sorry if you were all bored today. Dahlah saya melambatkan perjalanan korang. ): I just hope that you all reach home in one piece, especially Elena. :P

Anyway, thanks to Thien Siang for the card.

Came back home and told muah ma about my lunch. And she kinda disagreed with the way i spent my money just for this. RM19.8 [tax included], 9 plates, does not worth the money? Come to think of it, she is kinda true. I should be more careful when i spend my money. Money is not easy to find. *sigh* Sorry mom. Stay healthy and get well soon! It hurts a lot to see you moan out of pain. Please get well soon! *fingers crossed*

Ps. To Dad's car, please don't make any trouble. Engine, just work already. Don't give so much trouble! Why must trouble surround the people around me?!

Knowing Too Much

Note : A controversial post this might be to some. Read at your own risk.

Irony.

Mid of April it is. Yet life is still filled with extra co curricular activities. Even when the annual sports day has passed, life has yet to regain its calmness. My life. And i hate it. Midterm is just a few weeks away and my piles of homework is still untouched, apatah lagi disiapkan.

The coming events include prefect home stay which will be on this Friday till Sunday. Following Monday will be the lovely Intervensi 2. Then a few weeks later will be the Anugerah Cemerlang. Then, mid term. Then holiday comes and my prediction would be more and more homework. Thanks to the school's bitch. And PBSM camp. And finally when school reopens, things will hopefully, and finally again, slow down a little.

When to insert my study time?

By the time we are free of any burdens, it would be July or August. Trials time. And probably i'll only start my form four revision at that time?

Oh I forgot i wouldn't be THAT free. I still have the school's magazine to work on! That will be the time the EditBoard members work their asses off!

Sigh.

This school's system is severely flawed. It has so many problems to the extent where even the students can sense and witness them. I don't know about the ignorant bastards but to me, working under such a flawed system just drives the interests away. I used to walk in school with my head held high, thinking that i am studying in one of the best schools ever with the best teachers in the area. Now, i walk along the corridor outside my class to the staff room wondering what aim and purpose do i still hold on to. I couldn't think of any. SPM is the only reason i am still going to the school. Acquiring a good testimony is the only reason why i still carry out my responsibilities as prefects and what not. Or else, to hell the school goes. The amount of work they put on the students' shoulders while expecting them to excel equally well in other fields is monstrous. Probably, in their mind, we are the working machines who know naught of tiredness and weariness. In their mind, we are the machines who must produce straight As. In their mind, we are the modernised slaves.

Oh no. Of course they do not think that way. They do not directly think that way.

I do not hate SAB. I just dislike its system. And probably the bitch who create the system?

Flawed system. Along with unskilled tutors. That keeps me wondering why so many teachers are leaving. Mr Murthy, Pn Chin, Pn Ida and some who DO plan so.

Ah. It is so flawed to the extent that it made me wasted my time blogging about it. Yeah.

I guess i probably understand Jonathan Kong's feelings a little. Probably, yeah probably, i should divert and shift my concentration. Selfish, one might say. But for this school who is equally selfish, why not?

Sorry friends. I haven't been exactly happy recently and i know it. The amount of work and the amount of EXTRA work is starting to have its toll on me. Being ignorant myself, realising that some even more ignorant people DO exist in this era somehow..saddens me. Left with no choice, things have to be straightened out. Probably this is the reason the smile on my face is gone. I just can't help but to think of the existent flaw, which obviously has a tremendous effect to all students. I thought i was just thinking too much and that's why i wasn't exactly that happy. Probably now, today, i saw it. The existent flaw, which might have been there since years ago. And to do something about it, i am trying to divert my attention and my focus to something else. I don't exactly know how but i will try.

I just want this to end now.

He says, I know too much.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Blank.

I don't know what i should do. What I was told the other day left me hanging halfway. The amount of work piling in front of me seems to be invisible. Could not concentrate. Could not focus. Only the idea is present in my mind. Floating up and down in the sea of thoughts. I, don't know. Probably stuffing myself into busyness can help ease the blankness. Maybe. Yes, maybe. I should do that now. Nothingness, blankness, you left me hanging, you left me not knowing what to do, you left me not knowing my future and my plans. You left me clueless. And thanks to you, you left me aimless in my life. I shall stuff myself into busyness to avoid myself from thinking of you.

...

Met En Rusdi at Connaught Econsave this afternoon. Met him at the counter. Was really surprised. He was alone. And sick. Sigh. Apparently he left before the result was announced yesterday. Too bad he missed the best part of the day! Hopefully he's happy with the result though. He seemed so sad. Tried to talk to him but he seemed reluctant. Unlike his usual talkative self. :P Oh anyway he lives in Cheras. (:

Ps. Still addicted to Mad World~

People run in circles
It's a very very
Mad world~

Britains Got Talent 2009 Susan Boyle 47 Year Old Singer

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Mad World still..

:D

Writing a post which i hope can be published in next year's magazine. Gonna try to write more things in that magazine. Quality articles, hopefully. Not lame poems. =.=

Anyway it's the Sports Day. I rocked because i led the march past! :P But people started fainting even before the running began. Too bad i couldn't help as i was in the line. That asthma girl was totally.. Whoa. Gave us the run of our life early in the morning! It's alright girl, Laksamana still won in the end. Anything is worthy of being sacrificed! :D

Thanks to Winnie who came to help out as well! Totally unexpected! :D

Also, i am really sorry about the Old Guy who has passed away. We tried our best. Rest in peace.

Moving on with the Sports Day. I am really happy that Laksamana won. We really have many athletes. I did not know that Kimberly could run so fast. The 4 x 400 kelas 2 girls also did a great job! Continue your success, girls! The guys also did great! Hopefully they can do even better next year! :D

Oh yeah. The marching squad. They did so well weh! Especially the slogan. They did slowed down a little and the phrasing was much clearer! They did me proud! :P And when they finished their first formation and was standing at ease that moment, that was very great and very army-like, i like it! And when they changed from standing at ease to attention, totally rocked! I especially like that part! The rest of the parts were equally great as well, no worries. :) Though i am only a nobody, but i just wanna say thank you for joining the marching squad though some of you were terribly sick or injured. Your sacrifice had paid off and was rewarded with what you should get.

I just love Laksamana! :D

Though i have not really contributed anything. =.=

Tired. Should rest. As days will just continue despite the glory of the history. Sigh...

To Vivien, though you probably won't be reading this. Cheer up! Stay positive! If you put in hard work and a lot of effort and stay true to yourself, one day you can do it, just like TongKwun and JengYee. :)

Ps. I think i like the smell of Flanil.

Ps x2. Adam Lambert and Kris Allen and Allison Iraheta and Danny Gokey and Matt Giraud still rock!

Friday, April 10, 2009

Again, i can only imagine..

I like my class. Why?

Clement is the guy whom i talk anything to. Even during the down-est moment during the marching competition, he was where i released my stress. Facing unfair circumstances caused by teachers, he was again where i exploded my tension. It's not only pain and sorrow which i share with this buddy, i always try to make him laugh too. I really appreciate his presence. How do i show my appreciation? By saying that his stomach is wobbly. :P

SheMei, TongKwun and SereneLiew. The girls who sit together at the row behind me. They are the one of the best girl friends i've ever known for years! SheMei and I are so alike i think we're twins! She also reminds me of Sya. Our minds function the same way. We have the same mentality. We should be siblings. :P TongKwun is just downright straightforward. If i need any honest opinion, she's the one i would sought for. She is also a mysterious girl as in you will never know when she will or will not come to school. It's like a hundred million ringgit question. :P SereneLiew is the one to laugh at! :P She is a very understanding friend who always tries to make other people happy though she has her very own predicaments. Great friend to be with. Just love them a lot and thank God for the chance to get to know all of them!

JooLing. Just got changed to this class this year. A bit sad for her. Because she is the only new girl in my class this year. But she has got SheMei and SereneLiew and TongKwun with her so it wasn't a big deal soon after. She knows A LOT of things about people! It is really nice talking to her. And it's really irresistable to tease her, like teasing LiewLiew. :P And always talking to her is her good friend XinYi who sits beside her. Great guy as well. Never knew that it is so easy to talk to him. Another joker too!

Then there are many more friends like Fahmy, Krishna and Qamarul who make jokes in the class. Fahmy is like the backbone of the class as he brings entertainment! Then we have the straightforward Stefira who makes random statements which sometimes can be really hilarious! Haha! Then the girls like Intan, Afifah, Liyana and more would either shout abruptly or make random statements too or do something really surprising out of the blue to make everyone laugh.

A very funny class, if you asked me.

And problems seem to not bother us. Probably we do not show it? At any time of the day, we can always hear Fahmy making random statements or making stupid sounds. Slowly, that has become his trademark, which is kinda hilarious in its own way. Somehow, somehow, we just laugh at each other's stupidity.

How i wish other classes can only have laughters.

Being an observer is actually one of my hobby too. Tug-O-War. Totally none of my business. So i stood at one side and watched the event. Eventually, Syahbandar won! Congrats to my buddies who joined. Clement was so exhausted he totally collasped when he came back to class. Looking at him sleeping, i can't help but to smile. He has at least contributed to his house's victory. Really, an involuntary smile. A sincere smile.

An observer who observes. Unfortunately not an observer who can see through walls or a human's heart. The gloomy atmosphere which i witnessed in other classes as i passed by them scared the soul out of my body. Problems which i never knew existed, and still do not know, seem to have haunted my friends around me. It's quite difficult to find a friend who naturally displays a smile without force. Even the juniors have the tensed look on their face all the time. Heart-jabbing to see. *sigh* Probably it's the Sports Day? Hopefully it's the Sports Day. If it is, please return to your perky self after Sports Day, everyone! All your friends need your cheerful side to get them through their days too! Imagine seeing my friends like Sabrina, Valerie, XinHui, Suzanne, SheauLi and SheauWen, JengYee, SherEe, Victoria, SeeKee, ShiErn, Weihwei and more sad and down, heartache or not? And they are only either form 4, 3 or 2! Heart pains even more when i see Serene, YeeShan, Garry and FuiTeng putting up sad faces on their face almost all the time. Lending a hand is normally what i wish to do. But a friend said, why try to help others when your own problems is so big and still unsolved? Plus, Kenny + trying to solve a problem = problems becoming bigger. I can only share. I hope that i can help by sharing. Or probably you wouldn't notice, but i do try to make you smile sometimes. Because without that smile on your face, my world dims even more.

My friends, if you are sad and sorrowful, please do not force yourselves to be happy. Just be sad. There is nothing wrong to be sad over something, although you might probably think that being sad over that something is not worthy. Be sad. Be really sad. Then finally, get over it. At some point of your life then, you would finally know that you have already been sad enough over that something, and it's time to get happy again. Seek for help if you think that your heart cannot contain the sorrow. Your friends are always there for you. If you think that you cannot find anyone suitable to talk to, the last dependable person standing on this earth is still here - me. Why? Because i would normally forget things very fast. It's like an automatic file-deleting software. My point is, there is nothing to be ashamed of to feel sad or down. I just thought, it is not healthy to disguise your sorrow and force yourselves to be happy. Pretentious might be the word. And you should know that the word "pretentious" and "trustworthy" do not come along together. So.. Stay true to your feelings and then look at the positive side of the life and stay optimistic, still. :)

To all my friends, ranging from the youngest age to the oldest age, from tadika to whichever work place, from Malaysia to America, i really wish you all the best. Enjoy life as there is never the same second at the next.

Big Day tomorrow!

A day when i will lead the school's march past, holding the school's flag, handsomely and coolly starting the ceremony.

A day when i will stand at the middle of the field under the sun, watching every single footdrill team saluting the guests and performing their formations.

A day when the PBSM march past team shall make every PBSM members proud.

A day when the Laksamana footdrill team shall gain its championship again and make their commander proud.

A day, when the busyness peaks and subsides.

A day, when everything shall ends.

Best of luck to my own house, Laksamana. Hopefully the victory belongs to us again. Correction, the victory SHALL belong to us! Though i am a no one who has no right to voice out.

I can only imagine~

To Kimberly Chok Sook Kim..

Happy Birthday and join the gang of 17! Bye Garry~ :P

Don't judge a book by its cover alright? She IS 17, despite the height!

A funny girl whom i've got the chance to know more in form three. Indeed, a funny and exciting year. :P

Happy Birthday again!

From Sexy Kenny!

Adam Lambert - Mad World


All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad world
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad world~
Mad world~
Mad world~
Mad world~

I just cannot stop. Let's embrace his awesomeness!

Thursday, April 09, 2009

Still in awe.

Adam was just damn good! Terrific! Unbelievably good! Beyond anyone's level!

Allison came quite close! Young and talented! She is just very good.

Matt was the third best for the night, imo. Followed by Kris. Kris did not seem to be quite comfortable this week. Unsure why.

Overall, Adam rocks my socks!

RIGHT SHE MEI RIGHT?! CAN DIE MAN! *SCREAMS*

Cannot tahan from Adam's awesomeness la!

Adam leaves me speechless..

His performance was just..

*speechless*

Though i haven't watched :P

Gonna watch it tonight!

Anyway on Tuesday while having marching practice, during the break at Lorong E there, i was sitting by the road and saw this cute Bendahara form one dude. He was very chubby and hence was very cute! [my perosnal philosophy :P] So i shouted to YanYuan who stood beside him that he was very cute! Then..

YanYuan : Adik, abang yang duduk kat sana kan. Abang yang tu kan. Abang yang kurang handsome itu kan, cakap awak sangat comel.
Chubby Dude: Abang yang mana?
YanYuan : Neh, abang yang duduk kat sana itu. Abang yang kurang handsome itu.
Chubby Dude : Tapi abang itu handsome la.

LOL!

He totally left YanYuan speechless and left me laughing my arse out! XD

Anyway..

It's a bit saddening to see all my friends facing their own not so serious or very severe predicaments. Form five friends or form four friends alike. Any sorts of problems just pop up suddenly. I wish i could help but too bad i am no one. I hope i could just make you happier, like what my friend CengYew is trying to do. Let's get happy babeh! Let's hear it for the SEXY HANDSOME ME! XD

Yeah XianJin, HAPPY! :D

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

Sunway A-level Math and Logic Challenge

Crazy giler~

Trip to Sunway was hilarious. Never knew Pn Niswan was so funny and entertaining!

There were around 360 participants for the competition, which made it around 180 teams as each team consisted of 2 participants. That amount of students really put me off guard. Sunway was really filled with Sunway students and normal high school students man.

There were two rounds. First round was an individual based multiple choice question. Each correct answer gives 2 points. Incorrect ones give a negative 1. Unanswered ones leave us with no impact. So apparently our strategy was not to risk anything. With that in mind, i only blackened 10 circles. And there were 25 questions to be finished within 45 minutes. Insufficient time! And as i started the paper from question number 1 till the end and skipped the ones i thought was troublesome, i did not realise that the last few questions, 5 to be precise, were REALLY EASY! I left three of it blank because i had not time to read! If only i had a few more minutes, i might get 3 more definite answers! Grr! Levonne also blackened 10 or 11. Charissa blackened more. CengYew blackened 10 too i guess but he thought that one of his answers was already wrong. :(

Short break at a hall. Pathetic seating if you asked me. Sorry Roger. :P Then saw KimLi and KhaiShien! KhaiShien was one of the top PMR students in KL two years ago!

After the break, we continued with Round 2. In this round, team work was needed. Discussion was allowed. There were 15 questions only. Each question was only given around 90 to 120 seconds. And all of the questions were FREAKING difficult! Out of 15 Levonne and i only got 5 correct! And that Catholic High team got almost all of them correct! As they sat near us, we kept on looking at their answers. And they always got 'em correct. It was really nerve breaking!

In the end we won nothing. Haha. First place was taken by Catholic High. One of the surprising things was one of the top 15 individuals in Round 1 was my friend Tan Kha Hau from TsunJin high school! Haven't seen him in a while and he's gotten so smart!

I was actually quite pleased with my own achievement until i saw Kha Hau on the stage! He's so good in Math! Then i felt as though i could have done better. ~.~

To ease our loss, all of us went to Sunway Pyramid! Didn't do much. Walked here and there and watched the people ice skated. That's all? And headed back. To kawad. =.= Oh. Saw a few seniors there. WaiShen and her boyfriend. Sorry i never knew how to spell his name. :P Erm and i thought i saw KaYan too? And apparently Harinder's brother was there too. And saw some hot chicks sisters there! Wahahaha!

Anyway to all my friends, especially Garry, SereneLiew, SheMei and Andrew, brighten up! :) Seeing your sad faces really pains my heart. Sigh. Let all the problems go far far away and smile together alright? :D Go go listen to Remember The Time by Kris Allen from American Idol! :P

Thanks to CengYew for the opportunity and all he has done to make sure we are prepared.

Thanks to Levonne for willing to team up with me. I could have done better. *sigh*

Thanks to Charissa for all the fun and guiding us to the right path back to school. :P

Thanks to Pn Niswan for willing to fetch four of us with her Kelisa all the way to Sunway University College.

Ps. Problems problems stay away. Please please please please leave my friends! Please please never come again!

Ps 2. I'm not moody alright? I'm just back to the last-year-me for a while for life is never cool. So don't worry. And it's not like i do not want to share too! More care to those who need more! (:

Saturday, April 04, 2009

To my friends..

TzenHong, Ana, Farah, Jonny, SereneLiew, SheMei, TongKwun..

Thanks for the presents. You all don't have to. Thank you so much so much! I'm really thankful!

To Garry, i'll try to upload something in that new blog. A bit busy with the mountain-height of homework and tuition. My unbalanced life. Sorry. >.<

To the rest of my friends,

Please drink more water and eat healthy food. Please don't get sick. Please stay happy and bubbly. Please, forgive me if i ever ever ever offend any of you. If you feel like smacking me in my face because that will make you feel better, feel free. :)

Busy.

To Mr S.A. aka Uncle

..though it is 100% confirmed that you will not be reading my blog..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY UNCLE SYED ANWAR!

You've turned from an infant to a teenager!

:D

It was a happy celebration with you and all my friends, both old friends and new friends, and your pretty niece and handsome nephew. I love Chocolate Indulgence. But so expensive! And damn uncle for not finishing his portion.

Wahaha he is damn annoyed when is called uncle.

Thank you so much for teaching me Physics. I think it is because of you, i have more love to share to this subject scored a constant A1 so far.

Thank you so much for making my life more colourful with your sarcastic jokes and sincere advices in your classes.

Thank you so much for advising me to become more confident of myself and more self-defensive.

Thank you so much for calling me a perfectionist. =.=

Thank you so much for teasing me all the time in the class and in the end made me speechless. =.=

Thank you so much for forgetting my birthday / not wishing me on my birthday!

Thank you so much for the chance of knowing you.

And i am still going to annoy you until you teach me the ultimate technique of earning so much money at the age of 20+!

And bring me to Sushi Zanmai!

Forever my most respected Physics teacher!

*edit*

Same birthday as this uncle are the late Heath Ledger, David Blaine and Robert Downey, Jr. All amazing people. Wow.

Thursday, April 02, 2009

(:

I think watching that video again and again can brighten up my day really.

You all should go to Sabrina or EuNis's blogs to watch our masterpiece - our awfully wonderful performance at 11st of March. :)

Yes the formation might not be perfect. But boy, you all did all of us proud! Look at the kawad asas! That's CRAZY! The hormat ke kanan and hormat selaku terima sijil. I can faint looking at it. It was really uniform! Tukar langkah semasa berjalan was awesome! Hormat ke hadapan like Do Re Mi. :P And not to mention the PERFECT buka barisan during perlahan jalan. Utterly perfect! Crap. I think i am jealous of all of you now! :P Anyone has the full version? The ones i found skipped the second part of the kawad asas. I wanna watch the full thing :D

No matter what, you all rock asses! A moment to remember! Infinity of gratitude i must show to each and everyone of you for giving so much commitment to the marching squad. The squad was so fun and lively because of ALL of you! And yes, i do miss the moments we had fun together and especially the time when we made horny sounds :P I hope though ten years have passed, all of you will still remember the time when we trained under the sun and rain together. :)

Ps. Hope you all are having fun training under Chris! :)

*edit*

Crap. I cannot stop watching. Like everyone else said, the slogan was so good. My heart felt so..small and touched when i heard the slogan. It's too good.

...

Wait i don't understand what does "my heart felt so small and touched" mean too. So...

REWATCH AGAIN.

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

Never Satisfactory

I don't know. I just wanna go into moody mode. I have no idea why. Might be the busyness. Though i doubt so. I wanna talk.

Why is the forbidden fruit forbidden? Of all the fruits, why did i fall for the forbidden ones? Maybe that is because i am categorised as the forbidden fruit too?

I think i should just sleep. If i stay awake any longer, my mind will go haywire. I'm slapping my keyboard so hard i think it's gonna break into two just because the connection is damn slow. In the moody + violent mode now. Getting worse. Bye. Homework, wait for me at 4.00am tomorrow and be my ointment to my moody mode.

Hopefully tomorrow things will be better and i can face the world with a smile. I am not asking for too much, a fake one which can help me to pull through the day will do.

So take a good look on my face~ You'll see my smile looks out of place~

Take a break, Take a KitKat Watch American Idol

I thought it was a very hip genre. A very in genre. But as usual, when the genre is something like songs starting from year 2000 or top 100 iTunes, that week will usually suck. :x

Just my personal opinion.

This week wasn't good i guess. Adam rocked the house as usual. But it's a bit normal seeing that kinda performance coming from him now. He should really do something unexpected or else the judges will start firing at him and he'll go down the drain that week onwards. Hopefully he'll come back next week with a surprising change. Haha the show just aired today and i'm talking about the next. :P I'm still rooting him to be the American Idol though. The top and consistent singers are Adam, Kris, Allison and Danny. Especially Kris, damn consistent. So go all the way, Adam! I hope you will sing songs like Believe by Chers. That was damn good in hollywood, though it was only a short few seconds of performance that we saw. Adam the next American Idol!

Apparently, APPARENTLY, Danny was very good and it was his best performance ever, said Simon. And i think so too. :P It was soulful, kinda touching. Can be a finale-level kinda performance. But again, i'm only listening to the mp3, not the whole show, so i can be wrong. Hehe. Hopefully he'll do well. I love it when there is a week whereby everyone, EVERYONE, does wonderful performances. Hopefully it'll happen again this year, this season with the best talent ever.

Kris was wonderful! He's improving slowly but definitely. Another dark house in this competition. Together with Allison, they make this show so good! Adam, Kris, Allison, Danny, Matt make a good top 5. I hope Scott and Anoop blah soon. If only Alexis was here.

I WANNA WATCH! BRO FASTER DOWNLOAD LAR~

Anyway it's April now. Cannot procrastinate already!