guess what happened last night. it's like a rollar coaster ride.

well let's start with the good thing first. someone, someone, actually said that i am good looking. i was genuinely shocked. really! there was hardly anyone who has ever told me that seriously. she's the first one, if not second. and later on, we find that we share the same piece of mind. she thought lawrence doesn't look so bad. he just doesn't have a social life. -grin-

then. another someone [A] told me something..something..not so good. about another someone [B] who broke up with another someone [C]. how sad man. but i was surprisingly calm. i didn't burst into tears. i didn't feel bad. worse, i didn't feel sorry. helo~ both of them are my good friends and i didn't even feel sorry? i can be the worst kind of human. -sigh-

so that sums up yesterday night. i think i better finish my science revision by this week. enough of delaying. grr.

hey. i'm back again to update you with the latest news. about me anyway.

pmr is approximately 33 days away. i'm getting more tension and more stressed, in a way. therefore i am acting weirder and weirder. ask my friends and parents. i've just realised that, including this week, i only have 5 weeks before pmr. and i have 8 subjects. so if i spend a week for a subject, i can only finish 5 subjects, which is not enough. that has been bothering for days. to make things worse, i've just realised that, i always forget at least 5 or 10 percents of what i've learnt, which is not good. also, i couldn't remember form three science syllabus. so to sum everything up, i'm panic because i'm screwed and doomed to death.

that is basically everything about me currently.

let's talk about something else.
- beyonce's remix version of greenlight is very nice!
- basically i love kelly clarkson's whole album. still hunting for her remaining songs which i fail to find yesterday. so just to introduce her songs, here is the list : 

• never again
• never again [remix version]
• sober
• haunted
• yeah
• be still
• chiva
• how i feel
• one minute

- so go download it if you're a kelly clarkson fan! it definitely will not disappoint you! =D
- jordin sparks single is out, entitled tattoo. it's a nice song. if you like smooth, easy-going songs, it's not a bad suggestion.
- jordin's album is coming out in november!
- blake's album is coming out late 2007, which most probably be december!
- jenny by the click five their best song yet, in my opinion.
- love stoned / i think she knows rocks.
- hey there delilah by plain white t's is simple and nice!
- compared with boston, hey there delilah is much nicer.
- carrie's new single is out. going to hunt down the details if i have the time.

so maybe that's it. pray that i will absorb what i study. good night.

thanks to jo for i might never post anything over here if she hasn't tagged me.

Rules.

1. Each blogger must repost these rules.
2. Each blogger have to rant 8 random facts/habits of themselves.
3. List 5 ppl to be tagged.
4. Drop by their blog and let them know that they've been "TAGGED!".

the 8 must-know random facts about me ~

• blue is my favourite
  
• i love to cook, at times
• sleeping naked might not be a bad idea
• wearing boxers can be very comfortable, at times
• working hard to become toned if not muscular
• i would love to try something new and challenging, if you know what i mean
• i am unbelievably boring
• people often find me weird, and therefore, hate me.

Let me tag..

come to think of it, there is NO ONE for me to tag except for..maybe..

~ syawal

-the end-

freedom has never felt this bad.

the trial is officially over.

weird. i should be relieved but that is not the case. ever since i woke up this morning, i felt..weird. i felt down. i felt gloomy. and i am perfectly clear why.

today was the last day of examination - maths. it should be an easy one. but what i aim for is higher - perfection. it seems far to me recently. and yes, indeed it is far. because i was too confident. overconfident, that i will reach the perfection. overconfident, till i neglected my responsibilty. overconfident, that i left my books. overconfident, that i decided not to study. and what else should i get other than punishment?

and hell it was such a careless mistake. CARELESS! it's unbearable. it's..overwhelming. i cannot stand it. i cannot stand that careless mistake. i, hoo keen, who was so confident, got a careless mistake. how shameful is that. where lies my dignity?

and results of not touching my books, i screwed my paper two. i had not had any inch of confident within me. deep inside me, i was afraid. deep inside me, i was trembling. deep inside me, i didn't wanna do that paper. the careless mistake in paper one was enough to frighten me. i didn't want another careless mistake. yet do i have a choice. every time i finished one question, i lingered for a moment, thinking if i had done a careless mistake at whichever possible part. and there were TWENTY questions. which involve, obviously, not only CALCULATION. so you can imagine that i was frantic. i was stressful. i was frust. i was going nuts.

for a second i wonder if this continues, will i seriously go whacko because of mathematics. and to think that i desire to be an accountant or sharebroker.

and last paper is over. i didn't care. the first thing i wanted to do, which i had planned while working on second paper, is to go to the washroom, and wash my face. as if hoping that would clear my sin. what sin? laziness, overconfidence. isn't that enough? i went back to class. rearranged my books under my desk. swept the floor. ignored as many people as i can while another part of me tried to talk to someone.

and that time i realise, i am a boring guy with no topic to talk about and no sense of entertainment, unlike all the other guys around me.

and then.. i counted every second. every second. till school finished. and i went home.

that ended my misery. things were brightening up the moment i reached home. my neighbour just reached as well. this old lady smiled at me and i returned her smile, genuinely. thinking why shan't i? and that, with no apparent reason, put a smile on my face for the rest of the day.

so for you to judge. [maybe there exist no 'you' in the first place] was my day not bad enough? [even though i know what you will answer]

and i think i should change my life. brighten up my life. but how? i know not.

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i think i am doing something pretty bad right now. not bad, but too much. hahaa!

read my fs blog.

hopefully i succeed in making her cry and win the bet! hehe!

just watched a video clip on american idol tour. and in it, jordin was singing "this is my now". i am not sure whether is the song or the sight of blake lewis and chris richardson [the top ten were on the stage at the same time] made me feel.. i am not sure what feeling was that but it feels sad. and nostalgic. and feels like crying.

anyway i think blake and chris richardson still look hot cool! i wanna see a close-up gina. damn the cameraman has a weak skill. and i wanna see haley up close. x)

and saw another photo. damn that person has a cute and hot body. and a nice pose!