Just another semester.

I think my latest blog post was in September. How time flies. I always say this phrase with a hint of remorse because I always do not think that I have utilized my time wisely. However, I never change.

So the first semester of my second year of university has ended. What have I learned? I can't tell. It may be due to my lack of interest in the stuff which I am studying, or it could be just my own problem, but I tend to not remember all the crap which I have studied, even when I have studied hard. I wonder if there is a worm inside my brain slowly eating away all my wisdom.

I have been feeling uncertain lately. I want to apply the student exchange program and I want to go to places like Spain, Argentina, Venezuela, or other exotic countries. I want to try something new. However, I always end up pondering upon the same problem - finances. It's not gonna be cheap, even my parents say so. Finance has not been good in the family. My brother is starting college soon. The costs of living are steadily increasing both in Malaysia and in Hong Kong. There is no room for me to even spend slightly more lavishly over here, let alone traveling to Venezuela to study.

Such a bummer.

I don't really know what I can do right now, other than working out a budget. I will never know whether I can afford an exchange program unless if I work out my budget. At the same time, I am greatly demotivated because I know most probably I will not be able to afford it. Even if I could, I will have to live on a tight budget, which kills the joy of an exchange program - who does not want to have the liberty to spend and play and enjoy life when going for an exchange!

But what the hell.

Now now, I need to really do something which will lift myself up. Physically and emotionally. I am working in a job which I do not really like (come on, I really don't have any talent at web-designing, can't you tell?), I have to endure this cold weather, and I have nothing else to talk about.

I guess I shall make something to talk about.