Hippy hulodey~

So, secret ain't no secret anymore? x)

Last start from last Friday. It was fun fun going out with the form sixes when you're only..what?..form-two-going-to-form-three?! Duh~ Just plain awkward. I sensed it even before we were going already. I was quite surprised to see Maggie getting along so well with Hsiao Toong. Haha. And prefects do bring handphones. Duh~ Should've brought along.

Happy Feet was fun. Mumble was very cute! Did i say he is also handsome when he was jumping down from the cliff? xD The songs were excellent! And the dancing rocks too! Missed casino royale. Missed Step Up. But came back and downloaded Step Up. xD xD Will be downloading dvdrip version. Clearer bro said. x)

SYTYCD was great! Blake and Ashle rock!! Love them! Wanna see Blake do that move another time. xD xD

Saturday and Sunday. Nothing really interesting.

Monday [yesterday]. Nothing interesting too. Finished hp6. Had tuition at night. Same class with Chris, surprisingly. He just had to follow whatever what teacher said. >.> Not to say that it is not annoying. - - And did Mrs Gomez said the students next class is standard-six-going-to-form-one? And wasn't there only two classes on that night? And did i see a mature-looking and [sue me for saying this] good-looking guy entering that standard-six-going-to-form-one class? I thought he was like me, form-two-going-to-form-three. He looked like Wilber from that angle. x) What to say? What a waste? xD xD Well it's okay. If he does tuition there, we will meet again. -roflmao-

Wanna download So You Think You Can Dance!! Mana boleh aku muatturunkan?!

apology to..

This post here won't be in order. x)

Here, I wanna apologise to Yeo Hsiao Toong [although he will not be reading this] for salah-anggap him. Sorry dude~ Will not elaborate more. =X

That reminds me something. What did Maggie tell Hsiao Toong this afternoon?! -grr- Nanti banyak salah anggaps. Haha~ But it's fun, as long as people don't take it too seriously. x)

Stupid connection. Make me cannot play a full dota game. Goof!

Mencintaimu by Kris Dayanti is nice!

Nothing to say. = =

Did i just do another 5-in-a-row today?! Or was it even more - 6?! >.> Don't give a damn anymore. ~.~

Prefects AJKs are acting...funny? Oh. How on earth did i miss what Lawrence said when i was listening to him? = = Smart.Luckily he wasn't annoyed, was he? Jon and his biscuits. Lawrence and his seriousness mixed humourous. Ariff and his playfulness. How will this board be not interesting? Although this board is, somehow i think, [slightly] worse than the last one, this board is..er..more to playful? See how this whole thing will turn out next year. x)

Doing the..er..what did he name it again? I should be more serious this time! But i don't really do seriousness. -sweat- Dilemma? =.=" Pfft~

Boring~

Crap post.

Nothing to say. Bye~ = =

-Mencintaimu by Kris Dayanti

Moooody~

Lawrence has already known about it. I'm so dead. How did he know?
One, Christopher told him. But i don't really think Chris will tell. So i have no idea about this one.
Two, Hsiao Toong told him. Somehow i think this is more possible. Not to say i want to doubt him but.. I have no other choices. I mean... How come Lawrence will know if someone close to him didn't tell? I'm feeling very bad.

Let's see. If i didn't tell Hsiao Toong about this whole thing, Hsiao Toong wouldn't go and ask Kim. According to Serene, he did go ask Kim. And Serene said he thought Kim also did cheat. Because Kim didn't really answer when he asked that. Haih~ So Hsiao Toong did ask? Whatever first.

Then, will Hsiao Toong tell Lawrence after i told him not to? No, he probably will not. But then, how will Lawrence know? If i put the blame on Hsiao Toong, it will be rather unfair to him. So if it really was him, i guess i trusted the wrong person. I don't think i'll tell him anything anymore.

*Sniff* I hate this. I liked him so much. I've trusted him so much. He is a very good listener as well. *sniff* Luckily i didn't give this blog link to him. *phew*

Another problem. Well, not really a problem. Now, Lawrence knows about it. And he decided not to take any actions. And if i think from his point of view, i, also, think he shouldn't take any actions. And if this case is on Mr Tan's hands, i, also, think Mr Tan won't take any serious actions. This is an embarrasing case. Will one hebohkan or just solve it among themselves and anggap nothing happen? Of course the latter one. Moreover, if it is known by the whole world, it will do them [us in this case] no good too. A very wise move i should say.

Problem to the solution that Lawrence might not have known. I think i will tell him this tomorrow. He must realise that not only we have eyes. Other normal students also have eyes that can see. So what if any of them does report to any teachers? Well Lawrence can't blame us because not only we prefects knew about it. Our classmates too knew about it. So, it depends on him, i suppose.

And another small..er..problem thinking. Well, i mean.. Just listen. It is UNFAIR for Lawrence to just leave the case like that. Yes i know, i did say i agree with the action taken. He said if they do it next time, he won't forgive, or something like that. But, this time, is already the next time. What i mean is, this is NOT the first time he/they did this. So? They did it more than once already but they were just dibiarkan like that. = = I agree with Garry but Garry too is not taking it quite..er..seriously. Whatever what results those people get, they still did it. *sigh* I felt like saying, "FUCK! I should've done that too!!" Correct right? Since it was the first time, and seeing what Lawrence has decided, why will everyone not think like that?

And then, i am like the bad guy in the form already, for telling who was the bad guy. Yeah, people will ask why didn't i feel guilty? Because, we weren't really friends already. And i don't like people who cheat. It is UNFAIR to everyone.

I guess everyone has their own reasonable or logical thinking. If they think it is okay for it to be let go like that, fine. I can't really do anything. Can I? I'm not the God. I have no rights to punish people. When i am given the chance to point out the truth, i did. The rest of it is left to the people who have the right to make decisions and punishments. Fine. Case, closed.

Oh yeah. I didn't like that way Vicky said about us who blog. It's very obvious that he was pointing at me! Since i was the only one who blog very often in some public place where everyone [or is it the. whole. world.] can see. I never do despise him. But i think i'm about to. NO HOO KEEN!! LEARN TO FORGIVE! LEARN TO CONDONE!!

And i just can't believe how fast people can actually forget it. Fine. Fine. Fine. Just let it go. If that is the justice, i will stick to my words. World is never fair.

Apart from those, i'm very happy of my life already. x) Why did you go sho fast? = =

I guess my mood is now okay. But still...'fragile'. - -'

Oh and you don't see tractors and huge lorries pass by your house everyday right? xD

I will see just how my day will continue 'suck'. x)

Forgive.

The ability to condone is the ability to love. I second that!

I was so ashamed at myself for being... I'd decided to dislike you for what you did. But just then i realised that i couldn't do it. It was just too big for me. I just can't bear disliking you. So i guess i condoned you, that easily. And just then i realised, how much i like you, how much i actually care about you, how much i... My fingers stopped, abruptly. I didn't continue. I didn't want to continue. I didn't know how to continue.

Life is back on track although i'm not sure whether this is normal enough. But at least i'm having, the slightest if not the most, fun of it. x) I don't think i give a damn on anything. I just pray there will be no spotchecks though i know Mr Tan likes to walk around, like today. 0.0;; Luckily~ I thought he was going out? -wonders-

Anyway will do. I'm just too tired reading fictions today. I don't think i can stop. I need something to drag my attention away from computer so that my parents will not ban me from using computer and so that i can continue coming online.

Looking forward to class party although it will, most probably, be a very tiring one.

I want dota! Bro just won't stop me! I got the cd! I rule! XD

Oh crapo! Need to bring books back if what Hew said is true. And i have to return these pmr papers back too. Crap~ I haven't finished looking through. >.>

Why am i not Hazwan? XD

Oh yeah crap. Cannot go to the so-called-graduation in primary. It is on a Friday. Next Friday! Goodness~ >.<

-owari-

Hate + Loving my life.

Pn Siti Hanah rocks~ It's kind for her to call me out to comfort me though i couldn't hear what she said most of the time. ^^" It was surprising that she speaked that soft, seeing how loud she shouts when she teaches.

I think i really going to hate Cikgu Rahim for losing my things TWICE and made me lost my marks now and year-end last year, which means TWICE! What the hell~

Bilik peperiksaan incident. Scary~ Can still hear them arguing about me eventhough the whole thing is done and i was leaving. =.="

Considering those form fours who joined choir, i don't think i wanna join. Moreover, they seem to be very busy. Why can't they practise after school which is more convinient? Well probably it's their decision which i have no rights on anyway. x) Moreover, it's a disgrace. xD Well probably i will join if Pn Wan Rosna wants me to. xD I ask a lot, don't I? x)

I'm not photogenic at all. >.> That's why i was very reluctant to..take photo with..Roger. :S Wonder why did he ask me as well. :S

Nothing much to say. Hope i can do well in the test tomorrow. So, now, continue reading, since i have no dota to play. >.<

Underneath. My. Clothes.

Happy birthday to US First Lady Laura Bush, who turns 60 today. Born Laura Welch, she married George W. Bush on November 5, 1977, the day after her 31st birthday. Quote: "As we clear away the debris of a hurricane, let us also clear away the legacy of inequality." — Laura Bush

• - copied from here. It's dated 4th November.
  

It's weekend again. I felt welcomed. However, the morning tuition spoilt everything. I hope they will change the date as soon as possible. But i hate going tuition right after school! Moreover, my school activities are in the evening weekdays. Many thing will crash together and cause troubles for me. How 煩わしい~

Tuition. Form one [form two to-be] and form two [form three to-be] are in the same class since many people won't be coming every Novembers. But today, there were surprisingly few students. Nine i think. -lol- And the form ones are indeed form ones. Lol~ Was i like them last year? Nope. Christopher was missing. I didn't see him today. He won't be coming? Or was he just absent? And the class is extra quieter too. Vinop is also absent and i think i like his absence. x)
Had only BI and BM. Didn't actually learn anyhting for English. Did normal exercises. However, it's not the same for BM. Teacher told us about her conclusion on the recent PMR papers. She had both K [government school] and N [something like private school i guess] and she found out that students from N can score much higher than K. She did mark down that, the highest was 98 over 100 in paper 2 and she gave one of the students full mark in Bahagian B which is the Gambar Rangsangan part. She said, this is because students from N did less, and even none, grammatical mistakes and used a lot of Frasa Menarik. This two factors are very important to bring good impression to the examiners.
In the end, she gave us novel to do. Question : 3 aspek perbandingan antara watak utama dan watak sampingan. And i had to redo as i had the wrong idea of the question. It asked for perbandingan perwatakan [yang setara] but i did something like definisi for it. So i only had four marks for Isi. Learnt some new words too [save this for later].
Mr Lawrence didn't come. Couldn't ask him that English question. Demmit. And Mrs Gomez didn't really help. *sigh*

So, i didn't get to tell Mr Lawrence about my Sej although i've finally successfully gathered my courage. *sigh* How am i going to do the same thing and tell him tomorrow? *sniff* Hope there will also not be many students tomorrow.

Did and do not feel quite right today. I was + am easily agitated. Uhh~ Read the story until halfway then rained. Stupid~! So what is the best thing to do when it rains? Sleeeeeeeeeeep~ xD But i had a bad nap. >.<>is difference if you don't know] But suddenly i dreamt about snake. A class. With teacher but teacher was no where to be seen. But there is teacher. So this fellow in front of my seat was playing with a snake. He was holding it with his hand, pressing its head. It looks unharmful so i leaned forward to take a better look. Suddenly the snake was released from the fellow's hand. I quickly sit back in my place. Just then i realised the person on the left was also playing with a snake too. Our of the blue, the released-from-the-fellow's-hand snake jumped towards me and bit my arm. It felt nothing at first. But it's getting number. And i felt that the fangs were forcing its way deeper and deeper into my flesh. It didn't feel poisonous at first. But the deeper it went, [it occured to me that]the more poisonous it will be. Finally, everything went blank and i was..'back in the real world'. -rofl- But my hand still felt numb, as if i was really bitten by a snake. -shudders-

Nooo~ I love fishes. I love seafood~ Why must they ban me from eating them? And *cough* mom still *cough* cooks them *cough*. -mutters + grumbles-

Friendster blog is now down. So i wasted my time here. Didn't blog here yesterday though. So i think it's balanced. x)

Read Hazwan's blog. I wonder who is the form one girl he ter-perasan. x) And who is the guy he didn't feel good with. Not me huh? x.x His life is..simple yet complicated. I'm kindda envy. I love my life, physically. But i hate it 'mentally'. I think it sounds better in BM. x) And found Hidayah's blog too. Hehe. Nothing better to do. Oh i have better things to do! My Sej notes! Crap~ Gonna finish it tonight!

Before that, let me share some words with you guys i got from BM tuition teacher. =)

• Intihanya = Natijahnya = Konklusinya
  
• Desawarsa [can't find this word in Kamus Dewan, so i think i gonna ask her about this word again] ini = Kebelakangan ini
  
• Ironinya = Something like ironic. Get the better explanation in dictionary.
  
• Didaktik = pengajaran / bermaksud mengajar [i will prefer the former explanation. ignore the latter one]
  
• Hakiki [stole it from hazwan's blog x)] = benar
  
I'll put some English ones next time. Hope this will help in widening my vocab field.

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Dysphoric.

Did i hear you right? Or it was just an imagination? A hallucination? An ignis fatuus? You looked depressed, sad, or do i even describe you right? I felt so so helpless, powerless, useless. I wanted to..to hug you. But you know why i can't. I...I'm worthless. People were showing, pointing for me. But, i don't know what i should do. I felt so..so.. I'm just plain stupid.
I don't wanna know. I don't wish to know. I don't want anything to leave. I want everything to stay. Even I have to make myself selfish. I want you to stay. I don't know and don't care what my feelings are right now. All i want is you to stay, can you? -eyessoakedintears-

Yay i found a new word which i don't think i can remember but what the heck?! I will try to remember and use it so yay? x)

Had 93 for Geog. Can't really ask for more. So i'll just leave it here.

Maths. Such a killer!! I had only 89!!! IT'S EIGHTY-NINE!! Goddemit! It's not even above 90! It's the very freaking first time of my life dude! What the hell~! How can i make mistakes?! SILLY MISTAKES!! Well no bonus this time and i think part of me is actually feeling okay with it. It's fairer right? So my Maths, from perfection, i dropped till 89. It's eleven marks difference. Let my bro hears about it and how loud will he laugh? Oh congrats Clement for getting the highest although you still aren't satisfied. However, there's one thing that i'm pleased about myself. I am certainly NOT pushy like someone. I actually felt pity on teacher. And it's kind for teacher to ask whether i'm satisfied or not [although the answer is pretty obvious]. -faint smile-

I don't think it's wise to fight against someone, who you know, is not worth to. So i guess i'll just leave it here, unless he offends me.

Science. I had 96. Yay? Could've gotten 98 if it's not because of those friggin' questions! I should just follow textbook BILNDLY next time. Uhh~ And someone just had to walk around teacher's seat to peek other people's papers. How busybody. It was a miracle that i didn't shout at him already.

BM. Still waiting for paper one.

BI. Teacher was absent again. I doubt that we will get our papers back this week. And crap! That aluminuim question. How can it be wrong? WHICH idiotic teacher WHICH set the questions?! TOTALLY and UTTERLY UNREASONABLE! I will fight with En Annamalai about it! Well that is, if someone doesn't act like a dog and sticks with teacher everytime. Oh but the sun will rise from the west if he doesn't do so. So, who knows.

Moral. AGAIN~! Someone acted like a DOG~! He even speaked like a dog. I'm sorry. It's BARK~ When dogs bark, it's so damn loud and irritating right? Well if your dog isn't, the dog behind my bedroom certainly is. *sniff*

Oh yeah. I guess i know how many mistakes i have in BM paper one as the smart Joo Er stated over there for me although i asked her not to do so. So i know. And i got an A. But i'm not satisfied. I had more than 8 mistakes in paper one. And if paper is over 100, i'll be getting B already.

Will have Sejarah tomorrow. So i guess to be very down-to-earth and accept every single critiques i guess. Even if i lose my dignity, what can i do? I'm already the last in the class already. I seriously don't dare to think about my position in form. x.x So, hope teacher won't say anything harsh tomorrow although i know it's quite an impossible request.

-Tipsy by J-Kwan