A Day to Remember

Garry's speech was really inspiring. Luckily i asked him to stay a while longer to share his thoughts and opinions with the girls .

Reminisce. It is never a bad thing. Slow down your pace for once. Take a look at yourself.

Remember when i first asked some of you to join PBSM footdrill? Remember when i met you outside the school on the way back and asked you to join? Those images are still vividly clear in my head.

Remember how you were only an amateur when we first started the practice? Look at yourself now. How much have you all improved? Like i said, heighten your target and aim for it! Reach for the stars.

Remember how much you have sacrifice? How much the others have sacrificed for everyone? How severe is the injuries of our two beloved members? How you almost wanna fight with your parents just to come to practice? How you missed your Saturday sleeps? How you missed a chance to know a cute guy?

Remember how fun you have once felt in the squad, even if it was only that one one one moment? Remember how comfortable you might have felt when you come marching with everyone?

Remember the time when Kenny says that he is sexy for the first time? It took a hell lot of courage to say that because Kenny was never that kind of person!

Remember how the whole squad was disturbed and bullied? Remember the time when i posted the FIRST EVER HEARTACHE post? Remember the time when you were hurt so badly your image shattered into pieces?

REMEMBER HOW HAPPY FOOTDRILL CAN BE?

Remember one thing now. Remember how inadequate you are all. How much you all can STILL improve. How many mistakes you all always make during practices. How frustrated everyone got when the mistakes just never go away. Remember every single detail and nail it in your heart. Write it down and paste it on the ceiling above your bed. Look at it before you sleep. Draw out the formation. And make many copies, BY HAND, MANUALLY, so that you will remember the formation. Stick them EVERY WHERE.

Those are some silly things i would have done if i were you, maybe.

People have asked the reason I said what i said this morning. My only response to her was "Listen between the lines. Read between the lines."

Selfish. That's me. I am not committed to this squad at all. Yet i kept on pushing all of you to your maximum. After you all have reached your maximum, i pushed you all over to the boundary and create another new maximum. THAT is how selfish i am.
Selfish. Because what i did cause all of you all scoldings from parents. Because of what i did cause all of you to miss your tuition classes and any extra classes. Because of what i thought is best, all of you have gone through things you would not have normally undergone.
Selfish. Because i reached home almost 8 and after 8 everyday because of footdrill practice.
Selfish. Because i almost single-handed tried to come up with many many nice formations, with the one aim in my mind - all of you will be thrilled with the design and be even more spirited. Even more selfish, because i've got help from my fellow Ajk friends.
Selfish. Because i sacrificed my examinations for all of you. Selfish because even the book was open and the next day was Bio or Sej, i still thought about what i should say to all of you and what i should do to make all of you better. Selfish because that took me two hours before i finally gave up on the book and myself and went to bed. At 3+.
Selfish. Because i do not have any girlfriends who will merajuk and need me to stay by their side to pujuk them. Selfish because i don't have other commitment, other tuition, other IMPORTANT stuffs to do. Selfish because i so far only came late ONCE for practice because of the club meeting and the teacher who apparently ALREADY dislikes me DUE TO I DON'T KNOW WHAT.
Selfish. Because i think so far i am the only guy ajk STUPID ENOUGH to come from the first day till the last day of the GIRL TEAM footdrill practice. Selfish because i do not think that there was any guy ajk like me before (correct me if i am wrong) to go visit the girls EVERY SINGLE DAY without fail.

Selfish because i call myself selfish.

But.

I love all of you.

I LOVE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU!

The image of SS marching elegantly, especially when she marches with KeetMann and Vivian, that single line, is still crystal clear in my head. I cannot stop laughing everytime i see her because she was trying to be strict and disciplined yet she brings the elegance along with her which makes it a weird combination and humourous to me.

The image of Sabrina marching full of spirit today towards the ending of the practice. I have never seen that determination shown on her face for a LONG LONG time. I miss that face. I was not even aware that that determination look was gone till now.

The time when i heard XinHui shouted SO LOUDLY yet girly. I was surprised but pleased.

Everytime i see XianJin, i feel like hugging her so much to give her comfort.

When i see change in everyone's attitude, there were like millions flowers blossoming in my heart.

When i see the form two getting more spirited and serious, i know things can be changed for the better.

When i see a more serious face on the form threes, i know it's destiny.

Do not think that i have singled out ANYONE OF YOU! I HAVE NOT!!!

I seriously do love all of you!

Yes, we are no where near good YET. But Monday is the day we will polish everything up and strive for perfection! Monday is the day to fix our destiny!

PBSM GIRL POWER!

*does hormat hugga hugga*

Plays..
Run - Leona Lewis,
Come Home - OneRepublic,
I Will Be - Leona Lewis

Ps. I miss Maryam, ShiErn, SheauLi and SheauWen dearly. ):