Another Phase of Life

So I am here, once again. Normally if I disappear for a long time and resurface, it could only mean a couple of things: I am really bored; I have done something extraordinarily different that I would have never done under normal circumstances; I am really depressed, sad, or feeling negative.

This time, it's more likely the last one.

I am not exactly sad or feeling negative. Nor am I depressed. I am probably just a little of all these three.

I am now in New York City. I reached here roughly 8 hours ago. And I am here by myself.

I am feeling negative because I miss my friend a lot. A hell lot. And I won't be back in Hong Kong until January.

I am feeling depressed because New York City is such a fun place to be in but I do not have the luxury of luxury to be fully enjoying myself, due to financial reasons.

I am feeling sad because I am also considering about the possibility of a career in USA but for that to be possible, I have to continue my studies here and for that to be possible, I have to give up something which currently means the world to me.

I am also feeling negative because I am nervous about going to Illinois State University. I worry about my courses, my roommate, my life there. What if my exchange program does not materialize just as I imagined it to be? Was I being too optimistic?

Too negative.

Perhaps, I am just too tired from the flight. Roughly 25 hours. And I didn't really sleep well. Perhaps, less than 8 hours? (I watched at least 4 movies so that must have left me not much time for rest) So maybe after I finish registering for my courses in the second semester of HKU, I will sleep, and tomorrow will be better.

And I miss you, a lot.