Happy Valentine's Everyone!

A sad day. Not sad as in someone-died-sad or i-am-crying-sad. But it's pathetic, saddening, menyedihkan kinda of sad.

The day started off normal until i got shocked by YeeShan. As in, she-came-from-my-behind-and-scared-me kinda shocked. I actually yelled a little. Probably a lot. I don't know. Damn her!

I actually realised that it was Valentine's when Jaarvis aka The Boss aka King Jaarvis the Second wished everyone Valentine's Day after the briefing. That happens because i do not have anyone to celebrate with. What to do?

After that, i started going crazy, scribbled on people's notebooks, writing some nonsense. I hope Athirah knows who Kenny is.

Then, i wished everyone i know Happy Valentine's Day. Even the teachers. Even Pn Chew! But apparently the teachers did not care too much of it. Probably it's because they have celebrated it too often? I was actually thinking that although i do not have any valentine but i should wish people to make people happy. Slight happiness will do.

However, mood wavered a little during recess when i saw the mini drama. Obviously i asked her not to do what she intended to do as it will hurt him deeply. I actually pity him, really. With his looks and his kind of person, he could have gone for someone else but he somehow still wants to befriend her. Probably my opinion could be wrong as, yes, i am not that close to him. However, i thought i could lend her a hand or something as a good friend and as someone who really cares. But apparently there was someone else who cares as much too. It made me realised, suddenly, that i don't know where i should stand. I am not sure why i cared so much of this abruptly. But then the fact just hit me suddenly. She has got help. What gives me the right?

Stupid, i know.

Last period after recess. Sat in class to do work. Then Jo started distributing the Valentine's gift which was the Interact's project. And obviously i would not receive any while all my friends get one or two. That actually hurt. Though i tried not to care. I did try my very best. But when Jo handed me one, i was surprised and actually relieved that i actually received one. And damn it, i do care. It was from a very very very good friend who has left for a better study environment.

Onion lobster, you will always be in my heart!

Thanks to her, she made me felt less lonely. Though it was still quite difficult to conceal the disappointment. Something Valerie said kept on playing through in my head, "For a girl, if you do not get anything during Valentine's, it's actually very embarrassing." And i thought, it is the same to the guys as well.

On the way home, i was thinking, suddenly again, that i might not like the idea of having a girlfriend. Probably TongKwun is right. Though the feeling of having someone and owning someone, that kind of feeling, sometimes is irresistable, the feeling of being attached and tied to someone is sometimes very overbearing.

Reached home. Nothing more to feel. Nothing more to face. Just mere, plain wishes to all my single friends, Happy Valentine's Day. (:

Ps. Maggie, when you have already taken one lollipop from me, does that mean you will become my girlfriend for one day? Just joking :P