Decency

Am i too afraid to be dull. Too afraid to blend with the normal. Too frightened to be common.

There is always a constant conflict and contradictory within my inner soul, blabbing about what i should do and how i should react to things and deciding which goals to set and finally whether to set my foot down on the chosen path. Yes, i am too frightened to set my foot down because i am well aware of the risk behind that big move - the irreversible consequences. Longing to be different but scared to take the steps. Crave to be indifferent yet do not favour the common. Contradictory. Veiled by the environmental factors. Lost. Constantly lost and ranting about it.

I know what i should do. I just don't know if i dare do what i should do. And.. This summarises my life.

A test, to test if i am capable of sitting for a test.

Is this the moment where I look you in the eye?
Forgive my broken promise that you'll never see me cry
And everything, it will surely change
Even if I tell you I won't go away today

Will you think that you're all alone
When no one's there to hold your hand?
When all you know seems so far away
And everything is temporary, rest your head
I'm permanent

I know he's living in hell every single day
And so I ask, oh God is there some way for me to take his place?
And when they say it's all touch and go
I wish I could make it go away but still you say

Will you think that you're all alone
When no one's there to hold your hand?
When all you know seems so far away
And everything is temporary, rest your head
I'm permanent, I'm permanent

Is this the moment where I look you in the eye?
Forgive my promise that you'll never see me cry