University life is fun?

One thing is for sure. The person who said that university life is leisure and fun should be killed right now.

University life is not at all leisurely! I am at the end of the fourth week of my studies, and I feel suffocated already! I am so behind my syllabus for economics; mathematics which used to be my strong point is no longer my strong point; learning a new language should be fun but it's not when I have other pressure and tension to take care of; all my worries and dilemmas won't be eased away when the people around me seem to be having the time of their life.

I guess there is no fun time for me. Not so much anyway. And I definitely do not like the feeling of not knowing what I am learning. I used to be so in control of my studies and my knowledge. But now, due to lack of resources (no textbook!), new lecture style (university style!), and external factors, I guess I really am falling behind.

And, I shall not let myself fall anymore!

Must fucking buck up!