Hmm, new year blues?

People say that if you believe in something strong enough, it will happen, miraculously. So, if i do not believe in what i believed, will what i believed not happen?

I think it is usual. Most of the things which we hope and believe will happen, most of the good things, they will never come true. But when the things which we believe but hope not to happen, things which are unfortunate, they will be our worst nightmare.

I cannot give details here because things that happened around me are so drastic, they might be accumulated and be used as an atomic bomb strong enough to destroy my house. (That's ridiculous, i know, because how can an atomic bomb ruin only my house?) But yeah, things which are not exactly fortunate did happen, things which are bad, things which will definitely bring changes (though unsure what kinda changes), things which i do not think is beneficial. But these bad things, i think they are necessary, because after these bad things happen, then only will we get our lessons, then only we will learn from our mistakes and misdeeds. But, it will certainly be hurtful, and i dread that.

Why do i have a feeling that this would be coming? And why do i also have a feeling that the worst is yet to come? I hate these feelings. :(

Lord, is this the ultimate challenge bestowed upon us? Will this challenge bring vast changes to us? Will we find our way to a suitable solution and may everyone be at ease? May you bless us with your sagacity and your kindness. May you bless us with peace and joy.

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Jo totally has my respect now because she can DRIVE really WELL! And she drives an AUTO! Well, not that she did not have my respect before, that's definitely not what i meant! But she was so cool today! I totally have more respect to people who can drive!

We went back to school today. Ex school, i mean. :D

It definitely did not change much. Not that i expected any vast changes. Pn Usha Diane is leaving SAB to CBN. That's practically one of the most significant changes to the school so far i think. And Pn Faridah is leaving too. She is the Agama Islam teacher. She was the advisor for Volleyball Club which i joined when i was in form one too (not that it matters). Then, all teachers are to check the attire of the students during the first period before they start classes, which in my opinion would be substituting the prefects' duties but i am not sure about the details.

And i actually talked to Pn Wan Rosna. I've never talked to her in my whole five years of high school life and today i met her and the first thing she said was, i put on weight. Which is definitely untrue. Then i talked to Pn Karimah and Pn Khairunissa. And we talked to Pn Chew too! As in Jo Stef and i. Imagine when Stef meets Pn Chew. Well, probably you cannot imagine. But it was hilarious! Conclusion would be, Pn Chew loves and misses Stefira (which is definitely unbelievable!)

And i met so many youngsters in the school! I can't believe i am no longer part of the school. I'm an ALUMNUS! Amazing! A teacher said something which i still remember, we students grow up and will eventually leave the school but teachers will grow up and never get to leave the school. Imagine their despair. Any to all the youngsters, you will all survive and be great people! (: And sorry Vivien i couldn't come find you again. Hehe.

I passed by the notice boards and saw PBSM's. I'm kinda touched to see them starting the footdrill practice already, starting next week. Good luck to you babes, you will all do fine this year :) We'll find time to come back. :)

Allison Iraheta - Scars

Listen to this song. It's really nice.

Optimism is Bliss

Have you ever been happy before? So unbelievably happy, unconsciously happy till you do not even realise that you are actually smiling like an idiot. At that second of your life, you just feel joy and bliss surfing through your soul, like a little kid, getting a tricycle for a first time, or a teenager witnessing the beauty of the beach and enjoying the sound of waves hitting the shore, unleashing its benignly alluring aura, pushing you to embrace the colossal ocean willingly with delight, pleasure and pure happiness.

But, it is only a tiny thing.

(:

I guess i just discovered something funny about myself this evening. We, or rather I, should really appreciate the times when i am really optimistic, because i do not think that we can be optimistic all the time. That, i believe, is rather impossible. So when you're looking at the world with an open arm, take that one chance and look at people around you, look at everything around you, and be grateful because of what you have, and not what have been ruined around you. Then, you will feel satisfied, joyful and grateful for having such a blessed life. You will feel happy.

No matter what becomes of me after this, at least i know that, i was once, genuinely happy.

Just Like You

That's the name of Allison Iraheta's new album. I am in love with her husky voice. Especially in the fifth track, Scars.

We all have our scars~

Am planning to find a part time job which allows me to work from home. Plan to be a part time, home based typist. But it is not easy to find that job which is not a scam. Almost fell for one before googling the name out and finding out that Lim Heng Kiap is a scam. So i did not take the risk. Hopefully of so many emails i sent out just now, some will come back with a positive reply tomorrow morning. *fingers crossed*

I wonder how was school and college for everyone today. Should be totally rockin'? And i have not returned my SPBT books! So one of these days i shall pop myself up in the school compound. I mean, ex-school. I am now an alumnus. :D

Alright time for slumber.

*Fingers crossed, wishing to earn sufficient money to support the costly college fees*

Empty, waiting to be occupied.

First day of new year my mother said to me, you finally get a rest today.
Second day of new year my mother said to me, you gotta paint the house today!
Third day of new year my mother did not say anything, so i assumed i get to rest again.

Painting does not suck. But painting for days gets boring after a while. But i still love the satisfaction i get after the work is done, when the wall is covered with a fresh colour. When the house seems anew. That's gratifying.

Yesterday when the painting was finally done at around 8pm, i was cleaning the tiles at the porch as there were paint stains on it. And it was raining. The tiles were new so i could not stand the sight of the dirty stains. So regardless of the rain, i continued cleaning the tiles. And it felt nostalgic all of the sudden. It reminded me of that last time i did something in the rain last year. It was during the practice for the foot drill competition. When the competition drew closer, i remembered us practising in the rain and that image totally brought tears to my eyes. I miss you girls. Hopefully all of you will have a smooth year this year :)

Anyway am jobless still. House work 90% done. After tomorrow or Tuesday, hopefully everything will be over. And then, i will start hunting for something to kill time. To you who have schools to attend to, good luck. :) To NS people, good luck. :) To college people, good luck too. :) I seriously think i am the only guy with nothing to do right now. *sigh*

Though am a bit late, but happy new year to all my lovely friends. :) May this new year brings joy and bliss to our lives.