Hmm, new year blues?

People say that if you believe in something strong enough, it will happen, miraculously. So, if i do not believe in what i believed, will what i believed not happen?

I think it is usual. Most of the things which we hope and believe will happen, most of the good things, they will never come true. But when the things which we believe but hope not to happen, things which are unfortunate, they will be our worst nightmare.

I cannot give details here because things that happened around me are so drastic, they might be accumulated and be used as an atomic bomb strong enough to destroy my house. (That's ridiculous, i know, because how can an atomic bomb ruin only my house?) But yeah, things which are not exactly fortunate did happen, things which are bad, things which will definitely bring changes (though unsure what kinda changes), things which i do not think is beneficial. But these bad things, i think they are necessary, because after these bad things happen, then only will we get our lessons, then only we will learn from our mistakes and misdeeds. But, it will certainly be hurtful, and i dread that.

Why do i have a feeling that this would be coming? And why do i also have a feeling that the worst is yet to come? I hate these feelings. :(

Lord, is this the ultimate challenge bestowed upon us? Will this challenge bring vast changes to us? Will we find our way to a suitable solution and may everyone be at ease? May you bless us with your sagacity and your kindness. May you bless us with peace and joy.

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Jo totally has my respect now because she can DRIVE really WELL! And she drives an AUTO! Well, not that she did not have my respect before, that's definitely not what i meant! But she was so cool today! I totally have more respect to people who can drive!

We went back to school today. Ex school, i mean. :D

It definitely did not change much. Not that i expected any vast changes. Pn Usha Diane is leaving SAB to CBN. That's practically one of the most significant changes to the school so far i think. And Pn Faridah is leaving too. She is the Agama Islam teacher. She was the advisor for Volleyball Club which i joined when i was in form one too (not that it matters). Then, all teachers are to check the attire of the students during the first period before they start classes, which in my opinion would be substituting the prefects' duties but i am not sure about the details.

And i actually talked to Pn Wan Rosna. I've never talked to her in my whole five years of high school life and today i met her and the first thing she said was, i put on weight. Which is definitely untrue. Then i talked to Pn Karimah and Pn Khairunissa. And we talked to Pn Chew too! As in Jo Stef and i. Imagine when Stef meets Pn Chew. Well, probably you cannot imagine. But it was hilarious! Conclusion would be, Pn Chew loves and misses Stefira (which is definitely unbelievable!)

And i met so many youngsters in the school! I can't believe i am no longer part of the school. I'm an ALUMNUS! Amazing! A teacher said something which i still remember, we students grow up and will eventually leave the school but teachers will grow up and never get to leave the school. Imagine their despair. Any to all the youngsters, you will all survive and be great people! (: And sorry Vivien i couldn't come find you again. Hehe.

I passed by the notice boards and saw PBSM's. I'm kinda touched to see them starting the footdrill practice already, starting next week. Good luck to you babes, you will all do fine this year :) We'll find time to come back. :)