23rd of July 2008.

A day to remember. Not a day to be forgotten. Not a day to be forgiven.

Another meeting was conducted today. Regarding the matter above. A few problems were voiced out and advices were given to each other by the new and the old. I am not sure if things are settled thoroughly. Yet things are definitely getting better as i can see. A new board, of course there will be problems here and there. But as time passes, i am sure things will get better. :)

I don't know if i can actually say it here but i am not satisfied with the old actually. No matter what they say about what they have done, it's what they had done that has made the difference. But i decide that i should leave it as it is and the way i think about it right now and live on with my imperfect life. I am just a victim who has to bear endless mistakes in my whole life. Imperfection for people's happiness.

Oh and since i am trusting this horoscope thingy, and believes that this week is my depression week where i should remain quiet and silent if not moody, i think it is backfiring me. Might be having friendship problems soon. Might be having more problems too? Ah problems go away!

Very mature way of blogging for a sixteen year old secondary school dude

Till then.

Laziness still in control

Well you see, even though i had an extra one-day holiday the last weekend, i still did nothing useful. I could have done my physics notes and finished my edubox assignments yet i did nothing. See how power laziness is? I am really afraid of it.

But it's not just being lazy. Somehow, something happened to me few days ago. I just, turned down. As in my mood. Not in the mood to do anything at all. Even my parents realised that. To think that i am quite good at hiding my emotions. =.=

But what the heck, not like anyone will figure out what's happening to me anyway. Just let it be a bad bad week. [Even the horoscope thingy in the newspaper also said that Aries will have a bad week this week. So it's definitely not a week for me to shine.] Eh, not a bad month definitely!

DEPRESSION WEEK RULES! not.

I know i promised the damned penang post but I'm really sorry! Maybe sooner or later i will just upload the photos i've taken from the trip. Some potentially interesting photos. *grin*

Oh and i am underweight. Great. I must eat MORE! I must adjust my appetite. I must be fit and physically attrative. If so, i must not be me. =.=

There goes the rants again. Anyway good night. Must sleep early. Mom said my underweight-ness is due to my lack of slumber. Which i hate to admit is probably true.

Oh erm and when i am finally depressed enough i will come here and blog out my feelings and problems. Wait and see.

a little bit about the locals

- Somehow when i see Saiful's face i feel like bashing it and punching and kicking it. For no reason maybe. But i just feel so. Maybe the phrase "Bash Me" was written on his face which can be only seen by me. Screw him.

- Malaysia banned Avril's concert. PAS banned Avril's concert because her moves are deemed too sexy for Malaysia's culture. Well i did not buy her tickets and i am not a huge fan of hers but isn't that rubbish? Hello, it's not too sexy for Malaysia's culture, alright? Not for us at least! Utter rubbish!

- That apart, Beyonce and Christina Aguilera previous concerts were also banned and had to be held somewhere else like Singapore or Indonesia. Can i laugh at that?

Made of Honour

Who on earth said that Made Of Honour was not nice? It was actually very decent and, in fact, quite nice! I totally didn't expect Patrick Dempsey to be such a successful womanizer in that movie! And Scotland is actually really beautiful! It's heavenly! How i love the hills and rivers and sheeps! Yeah i know the plot is quite surreal and fake but it's a movie! Which movie isn't fantasy?

And i am so waiting for axxo to upload the next movie in my list to be downloaded! :D

I am back?

Hehe. I'm here again. Sorry for not blogging for a while even after many people have urged me to. I'm just.. too lazy. But anyway here i am.

Many things have happened since the time i went to Penang. Oh i haven't even blogged about Penang! Lazy ass! Will do! And now i am just..tired and sick of nothing. I don't know what is it about that i am feeling so sad and down. Maybe I just cannot get the idea that there will always be someone better than me. And with attitude i have right now, i won't seem to get better.

Anyway i just wanna say sorry to Stefira, Syawalina, Ushana, Farah [if you still visit my blog] and Karin for not replying or responding to your messages lately or even ignoring you because i was never here when i was online due to some reasons and i hope you don't take it too hard.

Uhh and i don't feel like schooling so soon.