And after all this..

Chow Hoo Keen, what the hell are you doing?!

*edit*

Every time this happens, I walk away slightly more hurt. It reminds me of all the past failures, all my past failures. I walk away, slightly more hurt. And with more and more unpleasant memories piling up, I find it harder to focus. And, I find myself in a more dire need of a reset button.

But, my conscious is telling me to never give up! The least I can do is, continue what I am doing.