Argh

Mr Chow Hoo Keen. May I ask what the hell is wrong with you? Why can't you bring yourself to focus, concentrate and STUDY?!

I do realize the importance of this January exam. It's the REAL thing! Yet I can't seem to concentrate because when I did, I fell asleep. Just the kinda attitude to have before a major exam.

Four days. It's the fourth day I've been studying and I'm still at chapter one. WHY CAN'T I MOVE A LITTLE BIT FASTER!

Okay this is absurd. I'm being angry at myself and expressing my anger at my blog when I am the one to blame. ABSURD!

I really prefer Math. No reading required! )x

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I'm now feeling a lot of anger and hatred and I need an outlet.

WOOHOO~

I PASSED! 47/50! For a while i thought i failed because i didn't know how to read the results. But YAY! To award myself, i bought a burger and a sundae cone from McD. And also because my stomach started growling halfway through the test. BUT I PASSED!

Anyway, that dude was really nice. A nice guy to talk to. I like nice people. They're hard to find but they are out there. People like me. :D

And I am in Christmas spirit now! NOTHING SHALL BRING ME DOWN! ROAR!

Reminiscence

There is this guy I know back in high school. He was a great friend of mine.

The special thing about him is, he has a very good personality which makes me respect him a lot. Like, seriously, a lot. He has very good instincts, which comes from his maturity. The way he handles stuffs, knowing which is more important and which should be tended to first, always helps in solving whatever conflicts or problems his friends face. His presence always brings comfort, if not bliss.

He is a leader, the kind of leader who understands his subordinates' needs, the kind of leader who considers what his peers want. He listens, patiently, and understands, and therefore he does not rush into conclusions. Yes, mistakes are unavoidable. But he learns from them, he learns from them well and hard. He doesn't let mistakes pull him down. He ponders and wonders and makes sure that none of the mistakes he has made would ever be repeated, because he knows that mistakes that have been made can only be blamed on no one but himself.

He sometimes takes things too hard and too personally. When something bad happens, he would put the blame on himself, he would punish himself, and it is hurtful to the people around him to see him doing that to himself. But time washes all pain away, and he will regain his composure, becoming a better man. And this is one of the main qualities a leader should have, in my opinion, to know when he's at fault, to not to be too proud, and to know when to recover from mistakes.

One other important thing about him is, he really takes care of his friends. He has the ability to make his friends feel good no matter when or where, especially when his friends are in an awkward situation. He always have this trust in everyone to be a good person. And hence his optimism always brightens people's lives. Even if his friends have taken the wrong path in life, or swayed away from their original goal, he would try hard to lead them back, even if he has to do it slowly and patiently. This is the main reason why i really respect him.

Friend, you are really a great guy. I'm so glad that you're part of my life. And at this moment, i miss you.

(=

And i hope i can be more like you. Because i know i am not, and it's not easy for me to be, a person like you, to prioritize your friends and family before yourself. And also because, i look up to you.

Though it's like super early till your birthday, i would just like to wish you happy birthday in advanced, my friend .

=)

Skate to insanity

Ice skating rocks. I finally can move on the ice without holding on to the sides. So happy with myself. But Jordan and Joshua were really good! It was their first time but they skated better than me O_O (i should probably feel ashamed hehe) Too bad Caleb didn't join or i could have enjoyed pulling him down with me :D

LOVE ICE SKATING NOW! Can't wait for the next time! Though it hurts my wallet to say so.

Oh and Sakae (or according to someone, SAKAI) Sushi sucks. :P

DENISE CALEB JOSHUA HENGCHOC JORDAN CENGCENG JOY i just want to say that i really enjoyed myself yesterday HEHE!

THANKS FOR THE FUN!

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Oh The Next Three Days is not a bad movie to watch! Maybe i got attracted because of one of the reviews i read - Russell Crowe is really a good actor! Though there wasn't much conversation going on but his facial expression really delivered the message of the movie. His anxiety, anticipation, long for hope, happiness, all can be seen on his face. Overall, not a bad movie to watch.

Where do I stand?

I remember there's a theory which goes like this : If one behaves extraordinarily outgoing and attention-seeking, there's actually something that one wants kept hidden.

I guess i know how that feels. And i guess i also know how unhealthy that behavior is. One might not care what one would do, one might even hurt people around one, at the expense of behaving more outstandingly. It's a subconscious behavior, i might add.

Not trying to be defensive though. Just thought of..typing out my thoughts out loud.

I wonder why, though i want to channel my extra energy and focus on somewhere other than what's on my mind, i can never concentrate them on my mountain-high load homework. Heck, i feel like going out so often, i think my financial supply can no longer keep up with my personal demands!

What happened to the composed and responsible one?

Who knows.

By the way, i am not even sure that one knows what one wants hidden in the first place. What a funny situation.