He Definitely Deserves Better!

Just watched the live version.

Danny was better than i heard he was. But still to me he is not genuine. Not THAT genuine. And Randy is irritating me very much recently! Even more than Kara does!

Adam is amazing still! He does not deserve a Bottom 3, much less a Bottom 2! The heck! Saya sangat tidak berpuas hati! If he does not win, American Idol can just go fish up and die next year. (: Maybe everyone should divert their attention to X Factor and Britain's Got Talent. :D

Anyway not so much of a nice day today. Very short-tempered. It started off good. The day, i mean. But then found out the dude didn't come to school. So i thought he was going to miss something good later the day. Sigh. Then something a bit bad happened among the AJKs. Which obviously was my fault. Sorry everyone. Especially King Jaarvis, I'm sorry for even suggesting it. I hope Mr Tan does not get heart attack. :) Sigh.

Then found out Wormy didn't come too. And Serene didn't come too! Zzz. Like what the, man.

But then whatever, didn't have to think too much because i had THREE groups of blackbooks to be checked! And most of the books have at least two full pages of names! I swear i started checking the blackbooks even before the first period started and until school ended, i still had one group not checked. Sigh. And stupid me, didn't bring plastic bag to bring the books home. Terpaksa habiskan di sekolah. Tulah pasal aku stress sangat.

Then after school had PBSM jamuan for the footdrill team. But most of them were busy with their own cocurriculum activities and barely made it to the feast. Luckily after 3 everyone started to come. Else all the food would be devoured by me! Garry and Wormy came at around 2.30+. For the food i guess. :P Glad they did. But Serene didn't. Anyway, thanks to all ex-ajks! Roger, who skipped his class just to come back to school to see all the juniors and to eat and to steal and hide my shoe after i stole and hid his. He's the most..erm..loyal ex-ajk i must say. Even after 3 years, he still supports BSMSAB. Winnie, Afizah and Cindy who bertungkus lumus bought the Pizza and drinks all the way to our school for the youngsters. Kinda sorry and paiseh for the lack of..er..layanan. Everyone was busy. :)

Thanks a lot, seniors. :)

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我不知道。头脑很乱。我需要时间想。明天跑步时，一定要clear my mind！

American Idol Rocks but Adam Rocks MORE!

Holy cow~

I am totally excited over this week's performances because all the song choices are BRILLIANT!

So i went over to Rickey's and downloaded their live performances in mp3 format, as usual. And i listened to Danny's first. Come Rain or Come Shine, a song that is stuck in my heart after Katherine McPhee sang it. I still prefer Katherine's rendition. Danny's performance, starting was good. He added something towards the middle of the song and the ending was, to me, a bit messy. I tried listening to it again and it still did not work for me. His performance just hit me as not so genuine. Just a personal opinion.

Matt was next. It was a great song. Melinda Doolittle did a phenomenal job with it and before listening to Matt's performance, i did not think that Matt can reach Melinda's level and after listening to it, i still think that his rendition is not that good.

Allison's. If, IF, she sang just melody without changing too much, it might be nicer, to me. She made it slower again. Unlike's Katherine's version as well. I prefer Katherine's version still. But still a better performance than Matt and even Danny's one i think.

Kris's one is good. But i am not crazy over it. Not sure if it really is his best performance. I still prefer his pop performances.

Adam's one is a killer. The song is VERY famous and it was even sang by The Pussycat Dolls. So i was expecting high notes coming from this dude. He kept me waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting until it came at the end. He was SO SO GOOD his entrance was..KILLING EVERYONE! And.. And...! I totally love his high note! This was actually the only performance which i *cough* danced *cough* to when the song started! I just don't know what to say to tell all of you that this performance rocks!!! WAH WAH WAH i am now officially dead because Adam is friggin' talented!

*dead*

Brother, faster download la! I wanna watch!

*boo*

I. Should. Not. Come. Online!

But i got to download Adam and Kris's studio versions from YouTube because i just got the YouTube downloader from Pn Karimah's laptop! :P

Spree~

Anyway it's English again. Sorry KaiShek. :P

Oh anyway it's okay all of you can stop wishing me good luck because it's not like i am going to take any action. So.. It will be very weird if you wish me good luck for nothing, right? So yeah. :)

Oh Miss SS. Like i said right, what if the girl is you? WAHAHAHA! This will be REALLY interesting! :P

[rant]

Sorry my friends, the girl i like for such a long time now is really Miss SS. I cannot hide it anymore. I cannot lie to myself anymore. It's really her. I know she'll never feel the same way towards me. I am sorry.

[/rant]

Imagine if i really typed that. I WILL BE KILLED MAN! XD

Just joking, don't take it seriously. I've been a bit tensed up recently. So i thought of making silly jokes and scandals to lighten things up among friends lo :)

On the other hand, i think we should bond more with the juniors. I feel so..weird and left out when we have activities, the juniors just gather together and have their own fun while the seniors gang up and make their own jokes. No no! Sabrina and Tammie will feel sad without Clement, Garry, Manwyn, CengYew and I because, with us, our height will make them feel LESS sad. :P Sorry Chris, cannot include you here. xP

What crap did i make?

Anyway, having fun chatting with one of the Terengganu dude. He's kinda hilarious and nice to chat with. And..evil!

Okay good bye. I hope everyone enjoys school days. Last year, remember? So please don't skip school! Because school is lonelier without you!

原来。

这。。应该称为暗恋吧。

请问，暗恋是个错误吗？
我只是想知道答案而已。

我希望，我不会到“疯狂的暗恋”那个程度。毕竟那也不是很健康。

也许这样，我也满足了。

嘿嘿，不好意识。很无聊的post。也很白痴。开电脑之前，我一直问自己为了“暗恋”这两个字而blog值得吗？但当我一开启电脑时，就发现这是个错误，因为很浪费时间。历史课还有超多没读的！我真的要坚固我的意志力哦！坚强的意志力来。。。

一，读书。

二，将自己单方面的感觉化为力量来鼓励自己。Positive and optimistic thinking 嘛！但是我有预感你在我心中永远都会有一个地位的

祝我成功！*美琪的perky attitude*

Garry, your name appeared in my previous post right? I was saying that I could not forget the night we spent together in Malacca and I love you very much, till death do us part. :P

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I think the font is too small. Maybe i should enlarge the font every time i post something from now onwards. *shrugs*

400.

400th post. =)

我突然间真的很喜欢用华语来update我的部落格。不知被谁影响到的。

今早起来与家人到TasikPermaisuri那儿的公园跑步。

不知为什么，自从从马六甲回来，我一直都很想要跑步。因为我可以趁着这时间不停地思考。

对。Ushana 和 Garry 都知道我很喜欢思考。头脑二十四小时都在想着东西。甚至想得太多，搞得对自己无益。

争取了跑步的时间来想我昨晚所post的文章。

我觉得我最近一直将我的部落格当成我抒发情伤伤感的箱子。搞的大家都以为我为什么都那么的down。

好像我在msn的personal message所写的，是时侯不再理会了。可能当我见到你时，那单方面的feelings会慢慢浮上我心头来，但我会尽量选择不理会。伤心的也许是我一人，但也没关系吧。你是不会知道的。=)

这位朋友，不好意识让你担心。我会与你们一起努力的。
对了，为了回应你，我想说，相信你也知道，我不是个很主动的人，这应该是我最大的缺点吧。我真的知道我自己的缺点在哪儿，但缺乏自信心，没法子更改自己的坏习惯。我多么地想像其他人，拥有那么多的自信心去追求。

在我自己的眼中，我可能只是另家的某个平凡小男孩而已。

赶快做完英文作文还要温习呢！

突然有很多东西可以分享
但是一时时间不足
再加上现在无法记得全部想表达的内容
只好放弃了

我与你的probability，究竟是多少？