May God bless my Grandma

Yesterday evening, my mom received a phone call from her hometown. My grandma had a stroke. They were waiting for the arrival of the ambulance. I in my room, sleeping, when I overheard the conversation. It was serious. A stroke. My grandma lost her conscious. She could not move her limbs. She couldn't speak. She could only open one eye. It sounded severe. My parents immediately made plans: buying some eastern herbs, informing nearby relatives, packing some clothes and not long after, they were on their way to Ipoh.

Like the saying goes, you can't sense it when accidents arrive at your doorstep. It was so sudden, so abrupt.

I could not imagine the anxiety that my mother was going through. After the phone call from Ipoh, she did so many things. Together with my father, they discussed about buying the herbs and if it's suitable for my grandma's consumption. They decided to wait for my aunt to come to my house then only they will depart for Ipoh, after picking up my cousin from US who coincidentally is having vacation in KL. They made so many phone calls discussing so many things and told my relatives in Ipoh what to do. It's hard not to notice the coarse voice that my mother began to have. How was she holding her emotions up?

I decided not to ask any questions. I gathered information regarding my grandma from my mother's numerous phone conversations. I didn't want to be in my mother's way. She packed everything. She was ready. She left. That was it. I decided to wait at home, waiting for her news.

Late evening, my mom called. She still hadn't arrived. There was a bad congestion, due to a heavy downpour. Grandma's condition hadn't improved.

Right now. My parents are back in KL. They are on their way to a temple to pray. I think that is all that we could do right now. Pray.

佛，请你保佑我婆婆，让她快速好起来。啊祢驼佛。

Good Luck in QT!

Qualifying Test tomorrow! I just want to pass everything! I don't want the college to call my parents! So good luck to everyone in MCKL!

I haven't written, or spoken, in proper English in a very long time, which is very worrisome as to how I am going to sit for my IELTS. Or SAT. Grr. I need to speak more English. Good English. And I need to get back my grip. At least, write with a flow.

I need more time (and willingness) to read some books!

To YOU who follow my blog

Hi! =D

After I re-enabled my blog, I changed the interface of my Dashboard to the newer version, which is more convenient. Then, I realized that I have 13 followers! It is an unexpected and a pleasant surprise! I didn't realize I have this many followers.

So to YOU, my followers, and also the all the READERS of my blog, I want to express my UTMOST gratitude. I hope reading my blog and posts gives you the entertainment or the benefits you are looking for, and I hope it's worthy of your time too. (=

Bon Voyage, Bro.

Just sent off my brother who left for New Zealand for work.

It wasn't sad. It isn't the first time he has left Malaysia for another country. So it isn't particularly sad. But this time, I have to emphasize again (for myself), he went to another country, for work. For work!

Somehow it hit me as I saw him leaving. He's not even 30 years old. Just 20++. And he has the opportunity to work in another country. Though it's not permanent, to me it is something very cool! Like a business trip. It is something I always want to do and achieve. To be able to go to another country to work, all the expenses covered by the company. And then thinking about the situation that I'm facing right now, all the uncertainties, all the seemingly very challenging obstacles lying ahead of me, depending which paths I choose. I really don't know, 10 years from now, where will I be.

At the same time as we sent him away, I saw many other people, many other ang mos, who wore blazers, in formal. They were definitely on a business trip. I kept thinking, will I have that opportunity?

I know myself well enough to know where my limits are. And honestly, currently I don't see myself at their positions. This partially saddens me. Partially happy because I am very happy for my brother, for his achievement. Partially sad because, I really, really don't know if I am able to achieve what I want, if I have set a standard too high for myself, if everything I have pieced together in my mind is just merely a dream.

Money, why are you such a problematic obstacle to me?!

Hi Blog!

I have no idea what happened to my blog but it got automatically deleted. I think someone hacked into my account. The suspicious thing is, there was a comment left for my latest post, and it was mysteriously deleted by author. But I don't delete comments! So my guess is, someone must have hacked my account to delete that comment. But this assumption sounds so ridiculous so I'm just going to ignore my own guess.

I suddenly realized that my own blog is so lugubrious! I should post something more..bubbly and sunshiny! I'll try, at least. There isn't anything particularly happy for me to talk about. So.. I shall just wait.

Anyway my brother is leaving tomorrow for NZ! So lucky of him! And I am here, lost and wandering and wondering what should I decide for my future! I really have a strong urge to go to Japan to sweep now! At least I don't have so much to think!