Sidetrack a little while..

I like you.

But I cannot tell you that I like you.

Why is human feelings so complicated? I wish my feeling is more controllable so that I don't fall for the wrong person at the wrong time.

But I think I do, all the time.

I can only resort to observing you from one corner.

Though, at all times, with my fingers crossed, I always wish somehow you can reciprocate my feelings, and may there be a start.

But, do all wishes come true?

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There are so many mixed feelings and opinions embedded deep inside my heart. It's like water being heated gently. When it boils, it boils "gently". Like bubbling. It's not vigorous but it's super annoying. And there is no outlet to such mixed feelings and opinions because there is just no suitable outlets considering current circumstances. What happened to the days when friends can just be there for anyone at all to talk about anything at all?

Is it because we've all grown up, we don't talk about our problems?

Is it because if I do share my worries or my opinions, that makes me less than a perfect person?

Or am I just not worthy of anyone's time?

Or am I just no longer worthy of anyone's time?

No implications whatsoever is meant for this post. Merely curious questions being posted "out loud".

I know the world. Suffocated.

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Or maybe, I just worry that I would burden you, so I resort to burying my worries deep into my fragile heart.

Know no fear

Trials is soon. I have no idea what I am doing here, online, watching dramas and leaving my homework undone. I'm pretty fearless, am i not? I feel guilty yet i take no initiation to study. Maybe like all Initiation process, i need the presence of UV light to become a free radical.

Anyway, Adam Lambert's concert was AMAZING! His vocal range truly has no limit! TOTALLY ASTOUNDING! I am so looking forward to his next album!

I just hope you can notice me more often. That's all.

Flu! Suck my balls!

Terrible. I can't believe i've gotten FLU! At the worst timing ever. I couldn't even muster sufficient energy to open the file containing ALL my maths notes, which means i have not studied tomorrow's C3 test AT ALL. Joy to the world -.-

Anyway I have a question to ask. Who does not like fantasies?

They make the real world looks like hell and therefore give us hope that the world could be a better place! Fantasies are healthy! I hope i get them all the time in my dreams!

And it's REALLY time to study LAR. No matter how much i want to open any of my books to study, i get glued to my lousy laptop instead to watch all the dramas that i've downloaded and will download. IT'S THE DRAMA SEASON OF THE YEAR WAT! Can't blame me! :( I love B&S and GA. B&S sorta defines the dream family anyone of us would want and GA shows that life can always be interesting.

And i actually have something more seriously to blog about but i think with the lack of time and lack of focus my mind can give, i give up. *hopeless*

OH. I AM GOING TO ADAM LAMBERT'S! YAY! Well if you're reading this and you want to go too and you don't know how to get tickets, BUY! xP Or i hope FlyFm is still giving out tickets to his concert. CAN'T WAIT!

*screams*

If only the world knew what I just did, I WOULD NO LONGER NEED TO STEP OUT FROM MY ROOM.

It's friggin' embarrassing! I hope no one finds out. Yet it's thrilling! And MOST IMPORTANTLY I got what i wanted! AND I WANTED IT VERY BADLY!

Thank you, God.

You started my day well, put me through a challenge and ended my day with nothing but bliss. Thank you. (:

UNKNOWN, HERE I COME!

Thank You.

As a person, we often do not realise what others have sacrificed for us or what others had to sacrifice for us. We often take things for granted. We often think that ignorance is bliss. And therefore, often we think wrong. Nothing in this world should be treated with lightly and taken for granted. Everything happens for a reason and with a reason. We should therefore respect what others do, if not caring about them.

Sometimes this sudden thoughts hit me so strongly i think it's an act of..nature or magic. Or God. Or maybe it's just that little pure subconscious voice in my head nudging and urging me to do the right thing. But what mom has been doing recently cannot escape my eyes. After watching Brothers and Sisters, i begin to appreciate what a mother does for her family. Well particularly a single parent. But being a mom, single or not, is really tough. And being a mom to FOUR children, now could be unimaginable.

She does have her own goals for her children - us. But i have to say, not all of us can meet that goal of hers. But nevertheless, i love her. I appreciate the things that she does for us every single day. My heart aches when she's sick or in pain. The image of her legs got cut by a dratted knife still vividly flashes right in front of my mind. Appreciate her. That's what i can do. Because like someone said, we never know what might happen. Later, soon or in the future. Mom, i love you and i love the cakes you bake for us.

With utmost sincere

And i love to watch dramas. Especially those about family and life. Because they make me think about what i have, about everything around me, about myself. They make me appreciate life better. But they've got to be funny, because i will not watch solemn, sad, pathetic shows. :P Though, that would only fit and base on my own definition.