Life as We Know It

I really wanna watch that movie. Seems so nice.

But in reality, life isn't exactly how we deem it to be. Most of the time, surprises lunge out of no where to 'ambush' us. Well you can call it 'spices of life' but sometimes the surprises are dreaded ones. We always stumble upon junctions after junctions and we're forced to make choices, difficult or easy, all the time. And we have to live by our decisions with the slightest regret possible because that is life. It's like an escalator, life keeps continuing forward. If we stop or pause halfway to ponder upon our mistakes and misdeeds, we might fall. That's why people keep saying we should always head forward and never look back.

And as usual, that is easier said than done.

It is obviously my stupidity but i often stop and ponder upon my decisions and actions. It helps me to figure if what i have done is right or wrong. Should the same case happens again, what could i have done so that there is a better outcome. These 'analysis' are obviously unnecessary but if you're in my shoes, you would know better.

Being me is not easy because one, i don't even know myself. So how do i expect others to know who i am. And all the time i always wish for the stars. It's about time i slowly wake up from dreams because stars are obviously fantasies and i am in a reality so far away from fantasy, it makes the Sun looks few metres away from me. Second of all, i am just too ignorant. Still too ignorant. I've never learned my previous lessons. Someone seriously need to give me a big fat slap, just to really wake me up.

Sigh. I have too much to complain. But i shall not?

This might be random but..

friends, i miss you.