new SKIN.

syawal changed my skin blogskin. THANK YOU SO SO SO MUCH NUR SYAWALINA AZWANI GOD-KNOWS-WHAT-YOUR-FULL-NAME-IS! more loves for you. LOL. but of course it is not as much and as deep as your prince charming's loves to you. MOREOVER, my love to you can never be compared to my love to my darling. WAHAHA.

yes i am insane.

what happened today? the first assembly after pmr. was it different? yes, no books around us. it is a much more comfortable 'scenery'. but i was so tempted to bring books,  story books or novels to read. i brought davinci code but it landed in my bag from the starting of school till i reached home. I DIDN'T TOUCH IT. although i got quite guilty seeing my darling and some friends reading some..er..teenage novels. will i ever learn from my mistakes - laziness?

during the assembly teacher talked about firecrackers and how form fives should behave and all. apparently some of them [form fives] lied to the prefects and said they were form three and wanted to go home early. such low-standard attitude. what to do? SAB boleh. and some uncivilised form threes brought firecrackers to school, which resulted on a spotcheck last friday and many people's handsets and mp3s and all were all rampased. however there were two "explosions" today despite the warning and all. i heard one when i was in block E. and the blast was around block E as well. either some stubborn form threes went there to play firecrackers or the actual culprit are the form twos. I AM JUST MAKING GUESSES. no accusation or whatsoever here.

i suppose there are many activities lining up for us form threes from today onwards. or maybe starting from the week after hari raya. i thought i would get the chance to play volleyball again. i haven't laid my hands on any volleyballs for2 years. kinda nostalgic. remember the days when i was a capten of the team. and play with every friends. but everything changed after i came into sab. not many guys can play volleyball well therefore not even one team which consisted of minimum 6 people can be formed. sab boleh.

the volleyball competition is only for girls i think. and i think they are even going to change it to bola jaring. so no chances. guys will stick to..either bola sepak or futsal. but i think it's bola sepak which is more energy consuming. besides that, we have sketch which i hate, debates which i don't think i am involved since they choose other people but not me [maybe they think i am not talented and because i am not talented], trips to pusat sains malaysia and some f1 thingy at times square and many more.

does it seem appealing? nope, not to me. there is nothing interesting in there. *sigh*

during school hours, all we did was playing cards i guess. uno and the poker cards. of course i don't play uno. it is quite boring. i used it to play speed, with ashton. I WON HIM ONCE. and he requested for a rematch but couldn't finish since school ended. he declared another rematch tomorrow. wahaha. poker cards. what else can we play with it? however we don't gamble money. we're good students. =)

then. pn zuhaidah, pn izakiah and pn azizah were chatting in our class today. [see, after pmr everyone is so free! so isn't examination a good-for-nothing event? just let everyone be free!] and later joined by another teacher whom i could not remember who. mr affendi walked by our classes. he seemed real bored. he walked by our classes a couple of times already. i think he is a little bit unused to the current "atmosphere" - pmr-free. i seriously sympathized him. maybe i should have a chat with him if i see him in the following days. who knows we might talk about a lot of things and gain lotsa experience. he is a very good teacher, no doubt. he talks to his students about a lots of things. he is very open-minded as well! too bad he is not going to teach us next year. )=

then off we went home.

i plan on clearing my files in my computer and refrag them. apparently my mission will take, maybe, a couple of days. *sigh* and according to bro, refragment consumes a long period of time. )= i want to play games. but i have to fix my comp first. so off i go~ wish me luck for tomorrow~!

you study your arse off. and be a slightly patient. and constantly be positive. and—voilà!—PMR ends!

can we stop talking about how pmr has come to an end and everyone is friggin' happy about it? because it is getting boring.

i am getting envious at how good my seniors [our seniors] write their blogs. their sentence structure FLOWS like river. it is just..beautiful. how i wish i can be like them. but with my low-level vocabulary and simple-thinking, how is it ever going to be possible?

there was a stranger chatting with me yesterday night. he thought i had gone up with him to genting for a trip. apparently he got the wrong person. but he was quite nice to continue chatting with me. but not as nice, later. he asked bout my gender. then he asked again a moment later. then he said i chat like a girl. wtf?

that is my problem. there is something peculiar about the way i chat. the way i form my sentences. everything is just not right. but again, it is just the way i form my sentences. so it doesn't really matter maybe. moreover, a friend said if it wasn't because of the way i chat, i wouldn't be so close with so many people. well of course the people are mostly girls. something to be ashamed of? )=

hunting new skins for my blog. this one is not nice. i need one with wider space for my posts. and coloured. still, i need assistance, right sya? (x

oh yeah, sya, i hope you don't mind i start following your way of writing emoticons. like (= and not like =). xD

we were talking about pretty actress. attractive actress. okay maybe it was only me. i am the perasan one. =.=" but keira knightley is really pretty! despite the..anorexic thing she has. but i believe most skinny actresses are pretty attractive. another example will be jessica alba! emma is also pretty. don't you think so? especially in this photo.  she is just stunning! and next in the list is carrie underwood. she is just beautiful. and she has an amazing voice.

i shall stop here and continue my rants, if there's any, tomorrow.

i am so FUCKING emo just now! AND I AM FEELING FUCKING GUILTY RIGHT NOW.

i just think that it's the right time to use the word "fuck" so i will UTILISE it as proper as i manage. so don't mind the harsh words.

i am moody because -

1. i got 74.5% for my recent chinese exam. WHICH IS A LUCKY "A"! that is IF the grade is not lowered!
2. MORE THAN HALF OF THE CLASS BEAT ME!
3. only just now, i realised that i cannot write a proper english essay. a proper, high standard, filled with bombastic language essay.
4. i have SO MANY exercise books to do that i regret buying so banyak.
5. TEACHER GAVE SO MANY LAST MINUTES REVISIONS/WORKS FOR US TO DO. HAVE IT NOT CROSSED THEIR MIND THAT WE WOULD ALSO BUY OUR OWN BOOKS TO DO? SO STOP STUFFING US WITH SO MUCH WORK AND EXPECT IT TO BE DONE PERFECTLY.
6. i am getting bored looking at sejarah. cos i am doing it.
7. i am getting bored looking at other subjects. cos my friends are doing them.
8. some people are acting weird [i don't know for good or for bad] around me and i think the reason is ME.
9. even serene agrees with me on that.
10. i am paying particular attention towards every single couple in my school.
11. i think i am obsessed with onion's relationship.
12. not only hers. but others too.
13. if people around me still act weirdly, i will get the wrong sign and idea and start thinking something else.
14. farah is moody too. according to syawal.
15. i did not have time to work out today.
16. i am good at wasting my time.
17. i want to not to come online next week but i scared i cannot do it.
18. someone said good luck to me but i cannot reply his msg. IT JUST WON'T GET THROUGH! stupid msn.
19. i don't know what to express anymore.
20. i didn't use any foul words though i thought i would.

good night. it is just a meaningless post. if you really understand me, you MIGHT get something. but i guess there is nothing meaningful enough about this post for you to understand. so. till after pmr. i need all your blessings~!

i realised that my blog is the most ignored blog. maybe it's the skin problem. or it might be me, the HONOURABLE AUTHOR behind this blog. later..later..after pmr..i will make changes towards this deserted blog. pitiful blog.

it's 5 minutes to 12 midnight. i am supposed to be asleep. but why am i not? because i am tempted to BLOG. see how much blogging influences me! it is part of my life, PART OF MY SOUL. i can never leave without it. never..survive..without..it.. carry on.

apparently my major examination is 15 days away. yet all i am thinking is.. MY PITIFUL LOVE LIFE. how relevant. so what should i do? TEACH ME!

oh yeah. manga is just so nice you know. the story gets more and more interesting. you just can't help but get glued to it! and it gives you all sorts of fantasies and imaginations. for example, VERY GOOD examples, naruto and bleach! sometimes, japanese manga can contain a little bit of under-18 storyline, which makes it even more interesting. THAT is the best part. oh in case you get misunderstood, it's NOT porn. no no way. i don't do porns. it's not me. i am just a typical civilised citizen, normal secondary school student who is facing THE major examination.

conclusion = porn is not my thing.

i think..that's it.

-looks back up again- oh my gosh i think i really need your sympathy. = =

okay since i'm online so why not i blog a bit.

i failed. i didn't manage to finish science. heck i haven't even done FORM TWO! and i'm only at CHAPTER TWO! and it's the FIRST subject i've started to revise. to make things worse, i have a sej latih tubi tomorrow and i didn't even touch the sej book until i packed them. DAMN IT. how am i going to survive tomorrow?! how am i going to survive for PMR!!

i'm so going to flunk my chinese. if miracle doesn't happen now, i am. ish.

okay enough of the rants and start reading essays and sleep after that. =.="